It's hard out here for a pimp..
Ok so I will start off by saying the Academy awards were kind of fun last night. I am so glad Crash won the oscar. I would advise anyone to go rent that movie. It is a movie all about acceptance or maybe why there should be acceptance or tolerance. It was such a thought-provoking movie. I cried, and I laughed, and I learned. I am sure that sounds corny..lol, but it is true. But...I was also very disturbed by one portion of the show. SO there were three songs up for an oscar. One was by Dolly Parton, one was a song off of Crash, and one was by the 36 Mafia off of Hustle and Flow. Ok, so I am all about RandB if that is what people like. I don't care if it is on the Oscars or not. Go RandB! But honestly this song by the 36 Mafia was called, "It's hard out here for a pimp!" Seriously, this was preformed at the academy awards, hoochies dancing half-naked on stage and all. Ok, this song was horrible. I mean it was the worst song ever. It was about pimps and how there lives are hard. It was barely understandable when the 36 Mafia was rapping, and the girl singing repeated, "It's hard out here for a pimp" over and over. I am totally amazed that song was nominated, let alone picked as the winner. Ok, I am done ranting about that. I was just very not pleased with that choice. The academy must have been high! So now I am here typing this entry instead of doing a ten source presentation, citing the sources, and practicing it for tomorrow at noon. I know, I know. I procrastinate way too much, but what can I say. Tonight made me miss some things though. I miss Jenny being there right beside me procrastinating too. I miss sitting and watching TV or eating instead of us doing our work. I miss that late night chat I could have with a person down the hall. I don't miss the circumstances or the way everything was, but I miss that. I miss knowing that I could walk down the hall and have that at any time. I know, I am crazy for missing that compared to what there is now, but I do. I miss that. I miss that company sometimes. So..I do miss things like that. This weekend I was reminded of something else I missed too. It just happens sometimes I suppose. I think I handled things well, but that doesn't necessarily take the sting out of any of it. So there is this weird feeling I have. I don't get it, and I don't know if I ever will. It is a feeling of uncertainty. I get scared about all of it, regardless of the reassurance I have. I feel bad or wrong about things, and I don't know if I should. I don't know what is right completely, and I think that scares me. The future is a constant source of worry. I have so much going on nowadays that when I am left to myself for even a day, I think about all of this nonsense. Well I am off to finish my giant assignment, and then the madness begins again. IS it odd I look forward to being so busy I have no time to think?
~Krissi
~Krissi