Feb 18, 2006 20:44
Im kinda bored.. and a little sad. So here are my confessions:
my truth
i like to be alone
but i hate it when im lonely
i have a boyfriend
but i need a guy thats HERE
people think im smart
but its just a facade
i like it when people are real
im the fakest person i know
i have no passion
im afraid because i have no dreams
i act like i have it together
im really falling apart
im too emotionally available
but im also emotionally distanced
i let certain people use me
but i dont take shit from people
i get nothing i want
i have everything i need
im spoiled
but im not rich
im ungrateful, and i dont care
most days i want to be sad
but lately ive been really happy
i think my happiness is tied to people
and not to myself
im still plagued by things that happened to me when i was little
i have problems
my biggest problem: im melodramatic
i like to tell the truth
but im a liar
i act sincere
but in reality, i manipulate people
i do it involuntarily now
i have friends
i dont think theyre real friends
i dont say whats in my head all the time
im a bitch
but really, i think im the nicest person around
i am constantly "finding" myself
i already know who i am though
i want to have sex
but the truth is, it terrifies me
i get along with my parents now
but i think that its fake
i really do care what people think
i say im ugly
but i dont think i really am
i have a need for attention
i also need to be complimented constantly
i wish i was like some of the people in my school
i secretly want to have some sort of talent
i had a chance to do what i love
but ive thrown it away
i really want plastic surgery
but im afraid of the pain
i want to be depressed
that way, i have something to blame for the way i feel
i wish i was carefree
i need someone to hold me
and the person i need and want is 4 hours away
i think im doing most of the things i do to please my parents
i have yet to feel true happiness
i hold grudges
but i can let people go
you wouldnt know it, but im very violent
ive never gotten into a fight though
i think im all talk
i really want to graduate
but the future scares me
i hate it when people ignore me
i bend over backwards to conveniance other people
no one ever does it for me
i really want revenge on my ex boyfriend
i think i manipulated him though
im actually ashamed when i think about him
but i didnt like him when we were dating
i think i did it cause the guy i liked didnt ask me out
theres a girl that i really dont like
i want to punch her in the face when i see her
i want people to read this
but i dont want them to
i lie about my weight sometimes
but im not ashamed about my weight
i obsess about my body image
i admire anorexics
i think im really messed up
and i think theres no cure
i think im in love
but i think it'll scare that person away if i say it