"things happen, . . . life goes on"
weird things happen
like when you see a picture and it makes u cry, u dont exactally know why because u think feelings are gone. but you've just accepted and moved on. feelings are still there. and in my heart i still care. for every breath you breathe and every sneaze u sneaze. but i know in my mind, that no matter what. through the sands of time, i'll never feel that kind of love again. but you are now my friend. you may not know who you are. but i know that i remember the first time we kissed. yes i still remember this. i also remember when we were parked at my old schools softball field,. . .the best moment of my life,. . .i was freezing and crying,. . .tired and scared,. . .because i knew in only hours you would no longer be there. no longer be there to hold me close or kiss my lips,. . .yeah i do remember this,. . .but i remember when u held me right and sat there with me as i cried. you wiped away EVERY tear and helped me not to fear you leaving me because you would be back someday. and that day would be soon. and tho u left that night. i remember every word you said to me. i hold them in my heart every time i breathe. but i also know i fucked that up by cheating on you and lying so badly,. . .knowing that what you were going through in your life was so much for you to take,. . .i continued you to break,. . .i tore apart what of you was left.. . . .for this i will never forgive myself. so every nite that i sleep,. . .i pray a prayer for you and me. i pray it the same every nite,. .and every nite i cry inside. i say to the lord obove me still,. . .please forgive me if you will,. . .i loved this ONE with all my heart,. . .but i messed up from the start. i thought i had to lie and cheat and i never thought they truey loved me,. . .but days went on and it sunk in that this person would be there for me till the end,. . .and even though i messed up,. . .i pray for her for someone to love,. . .someone that will treat her how she deserves. and to linger on her every word. i pray she's happy the rest of her life,. . .and i pray that it would be me by her side,. . .but as i know this will not come true,. . .i pray for her,. . . to choose,. . .i've told how i felt,. . .time and time again. but i know and accept us just as friends,. . . . . . . .
like when you see a picture and it makes u cry, u dont exactally know why because u think feelings are gone. but you've just accepted and moved on. feelings are still there. and in my heart i still care. for every breath you breathe and every sneaze u sneaze. but i know in my mind, that no matter what. through the sands of time, i'll never feel that kind of love again. but you are now my friend. you may not know who you are. but i know that i remember the first time we kissed. yes i still remember this. i also remember when we were parked at my old schools softball field,. . .the best moment of my life,. . .i was freezing and crying,. . .tired and scared,. . .because i knew in only hours you would no longer be there. no longer be there to hold me close or kiss my lips,. . .yeah i do remember this,. . .but i remember when u held me right and sat there with me as i cried. you wiped away EVERY tear and helped me not to fear you leaving me because you would be back someday. and that day would be soon. and tho u left that night. i remember every word you said to me. i hold them in my heart every time i breathe. but i also know i fucked that up by cheating on you and lying so badly,. . .knowing that what you were going through in your life was so much for you to take,. . .i continued you to break,. . .i tore apart what of you was left.. . . .for this i will never forgive myself. so every nite that i sleep,. . .i pray a prayer for you and me. i pray it the same every nite,. .and every nite i cry inside. i say to the lord obove me still,. . .please forgive me if you will,. . .i loved this ONE with all my heart,. . .but i messed up from the start. i thought i had to lie and cheat and i never thought they truey loved me,. . .but days went on and it sunk in that this person would be there for me till the end,. . .and even though i messed up,. . .i pray for her for someone to love,. . .someone that will treat her how she deserves. and to linger on her every word. i pray she's happy the rest of her life,. . .and i pray that it would be me by her side,. . .but as i know this will not come true,. . .i pray for her,. . . to choose,. . .i've told how i felt,. . .time and time again. but i know and accept us just as friends,. . . . . . . .