Good Bye, Good Bye.
Don't Say
JaeJoong&Yunho
Romance, slight dramatics.
They started together, They'll fight together.
Don't Say Goodbye
You don't know how it happened, how it could happen. I love you, I love you too. Really? Really. A love formed by innocent infatuation, from a tall boy with round cheeks and excess baby fat coming from his arms; short crooked teeth that had not yet been fixed and small eyes to a pale, wide eyed boy with wide cheekbones, thin jet black hair, and full pouted lips that looked like it held many complaints but instead held the voice of an angel. An angel who happened to find his way to you.
So easily, the path we can’t go back to,
Far away, although you’re scared, we can make it through together
You couldn't understand that feeling, that feeling of when his lips brushed against your cheek during lip syncing to hug at a radio station, you - the leader, him - the lead singer, the audience - the maknae. Stunned, you open your mouth wide in a gasp, a small smirk on his face as you look back at him. He giggles childishly as he looks at you with eyes that gleam with affection. You return his affection with a lopsided smile, as you feel your heart flip-flop-flip-flop in your butterfly filled chest. You want to hold him, you want to ask him to kiss you again, you want him to make your heart race as he just did with one kiss. You want him. But you don't hold him, you don't ask him. You're too young to understand.
[Because I feel like a lost child, I just wait]
You couldn't breath when he fell, he fell right in front of you, and you couldn't catch him. Breaking his leg, he barely makes a sound, quietly he picks himself up and keeps dancing until he can't take it anymore. He sits quietly in the corner watching, its not until later on you find out its serious "I'm sorry Yun ah, I'm sorry." He says immediately once you two are alone in the hospital room. You want to cry for him, cry the tears he won't. But you don't because you know he wouldn't want you to. It was then that Yoochun, Junsu, Changmin and you stood before him and told him you would wait for his recovery. To rest well, and to believe Dong Bang Shin Ki will work harder until all five of you stood on stage together again. It was also then you began to watch him, intently catering to his every need. You use his disability as a reason to hold his hand and lead him, to hug him from behind and wrap your arms around him so tight you know he can't breath, but he doesn't complain. He never complains.
[Even if you fall due to being exhausted, do you see me in front of you?
The person who’ll be willing to let you stay?]
You couldn't stop crying, crying when he was found drinking and driving and was suspended from further Dong Bang Shin Ki activities. Rumors of disbanding made way into the internet. You cried with him in your arms. Nothing but apologies and sobbing chokes came from his lips. "I'm sorry Yunho-ah. I'm sorry!" He cried shamelessly, regret clouding his tear covered face as he asked, "do you think my fans would forgive me?" He was always apologizing to you as if he disappointed you. He didn't, never did - he never would.
[I’ll be your comfort, is it okay? (So you’re not afraid)
Oh love is strong, don’t be scared, trust me]
You can't remember who started it all, it being the game. The game of secret smiles, long stares, a touch here; a touch there. A lean to the left and a lean to the right every now and then. The chase. You think it was him, but you can't be too sure. He watches you with intensity, his lips tight in concentration as his whole body turns to you during interviews, and you steal glances when no one's watching. Or so you think, until you see a fan video of you stifling a giggle as you successfully take a peak at the lead singer without him noticing. Maknae once again between you both to keep you both in check, because you both know what would happen if no one was there to separate you both. Sometimes in the back of your mind, you want to change the order of the line, placing yourself right beside JaeJoong. But the feeling of him so near never went away, you think it never would, the feel of his hands in your hand - so right, so real - as he's always ready to hold you. Always ready to clasp your hand in his. Always ready for you. Ready-set-start!
["When it becomes hard for you,
I’ll hold onto your hand"]
You didn't know what to do about her, her being the backup dancer you were rumored to be dating. "Hyung you look so cool!" Your members tell you, all five of you gather in front of the laptop. Before you guys is a picture of you kissing her during your checkmate solo. You steal a glance at the lead singer, a soft smile on his face. But behind the lead singer's smile, you could see his eyes telling you a different story, "Yunho ah, these rumors hurt me here." He tells you one day, his hand gently touching his chest - his heart. All you could do is gather him up into your arms, your quivering lips kissing his temples over and over again. You don't think its enough - it isn't. You know how it feels, how much it hurt, because you remember oh so well how your whole body numbed upon seeing his kissing scene with his love interest Han Hyo Joo for his teledrama. You remember how you wished there was some other way, some camera magic - maybe a script change. Anything so he didn't have to kiss her
[I can hear your heart telling me not to let go of your hands,
You can’t hide it, you can’t lie]
Your heart breaks breaks breaks, breaks when you see the articles, 'DONG BANG SHIN KI DISBANDING'. It leaves you and the band stunned, muted by dreadful emotions. "What are we going to do Yunho-ah" he groans to you as you two steal away from the other members into another room, "what are we going to do, our fans" he chokes, and he covers his mouth with his hands. He wants to cry. "JaeJoongie-ah. Don't let this get to you," you say as you put your lips to his forehead. "They must be upset, our fans," he murmurs into your chest. You sigh, because you know its true. The fans have started to panic, and JaeJoong has begun to panic along with them. "But you know JaeJoongie, you know better than anyone. No one is going to tear us apart. No one." You hear him stifle a cry and you blink away your own tears, "because we are Dong Bang Shin ki, JaeJoong, Yunho, Junsu, Yoochun and Changmin. We stand together always." He nods but he doesn't look up, "Listen JaeJoongie. Listen, it's us forever. We promised each other in the beginning of all this. Its us five or nothing." He stops shaking in your arms, and he looks up at you with tear filled eyes, "I know, I know. I know they can't break us up. We won't let it, will we Appa?" he giggles, as you wipe away his tears, "Right Umma." And you know it is going to be okay, because even though the future is uncertain. The fate of Dong Bang Shin Ki is, and you know that there is no way in hell you're letting anyone tear you away from your members, and the man you love more than life itself. You and your members will break all odds, the odds won't break you. Soon, soon you will infinitely kiss those that try to harm you good bye, good bye.
[I can hear your heart; Even if the world turns its back on us;
Even if it’s a painful love, You are my love, you are my soul]
credits to Iheartyunjae; I would suggest muting the volume. :]//
This is really just something I needed to do. Honestly, this was supposed to be a dreadful YunJae angst story, but I couldn't do it. Instead I decided to comfort myself with this. Because I actually can't even write anything proper at all! I needed to write this for me, personally because I do not believe in them disbanding anytime soon, or ever. But seeing the panic surrounding it saddens me, because I know they are saddened by our grief. As I read this over and over, I totally realized I shifted from a YunJae love story to a - dong bang disbandment story. But I really don't mind I suppose. I just need this. I DO realize I do not speak of anything that happened to the other members, or Yunho himself. Basically its just Yunho saying how he came to love JaeJoong. I might write something to accommodate this. But at the moment I'm just - ugh'd out.
I suppose you can tell I haven't written anything in weeks, but honestly - I've been writing everyday. 5 stories lined up, 5 stories I can't even finish because I feel stuck. Just stuck. Some of you, who have me on msn know I've fallen into massive stress. My old perfectionist ways are coming back to me. So please bear with me, for I just don't know what the heck I'm doing anymore.
JaeJoong&Yunho
Romance, slight dramatics.
They started together, They'll fight together.
Don't Say Goodbye
You don't know how it happened, how it could happen. I love you, I love you too. Really? Really. A love formed by innocent infatuation, from a tall boy with round cheeks and excess baby fat coming from his arms; short crooked teeth that had not yet been fixed and small eyes to a pale, wide eyed boy with wide cheekbones, thin jet black hair, and full pouted lips that looked like it held many complaints but instead held the voice of an angel. An angel who happened to find his way to you.
So easily, the path we can’t go back to,
Far away, although you’re scared, we can make it through together
You couldn't understand that feeling, that feeling of when his lips brushed against your cheek during lip syncing to hug at a radio station, you - the leader, him - the lead singer, the audience - the maknae. Stunned, you open your mouth wide in a gasp, a small smirk on his face as you look back at him. He giggles childishly as he looks at you with eyes that gleam with affection. You return his affection with a lopsided smile, as you feel your heart flip-flop-flip-flop in your butterfly filled chest. You want to hold him, you want to ask him to kiss you again, you want him to make your heart race as he just did with one kiss. You want him. But you don't hold him, you don't ask him. You're too young to understand.
[Because I feel like a lost child, I just wait]
You couldn't breath when he fell, he fell right in front of you, and you couldn't catch him. Breaking his leg, he barely makes a sound, quietly he picks himself up and keeps dancing until he can't take it anymore. He sits quietly in the corner watching, its not until later on you find out its serious "I'm sorry Yun ah, I'm sorry." He says immediately once you two are alone in the hospital room. You want to cry for him, cry the tears he won't. But you don't because you know he wouldn't want you to. It was then that Yoochun, Junsu, Changmin and you stood before him and told him you would wait for his recovery. To rest well, and to believe Dong Bang Shin Ki will work harder until all five of you stood on stage together again. It was also then you began to watch him, intently catering to his every need. You use his disability as a reason to hold his hand and lead him, to hug him from behind and wrap your arms around him so tight you know he can't breath, but he doesn't complain. He never complains.
[Even if you fall due to being exhausted, do you see me in front of you?
The person who’ll be willing to let you stay?]
You couldn't stop crying, crying when he was found drinking and driving and was suspended from further Dong Bang Shin Ki activities. Rumors of disbanding made way into the internet. You cried with him in your arms. Nothing but apologies and sobbing chokes came from his lips. "I'm sorry Yunho-ah. I'm sorry!" He cried shamelessly, regret clouding his tear covered face as he asked, "do you think my fans would forgive me?" He was always apologizing to you as if he disappointed you. He didn't, never did - he never would.
[I’ll be your comfort, is it okay? (So you’re not afraid)
Oh love is strong, don’t be scared, trust me]
You can't remember who started it all, it being the game. The game of secret smiles, long stares, a touch here; a touch there. A lean to the left and a lean to the right every now and then. The chase. You think it was him, but you can't be too sure. He watches you with intensity, his lips tight in concentration as his whole body turns to you during interviews, and you steal glances when no one's watching. Or so you think, until you see a fan video of you stifling a giggle as you successfully take a peak at the lead singer without him noticing. Maknae once again between you both to keep you both in check, because you both know what would happen if no one was there to separate you both. Sometimes in the back of your mind, you want to change the order of the line, placing yourself right beside JaeJoong. But the feeling of him so near never went away, you think it never would, the feel of his hands in your hand - so right, so real - as he's always ready to hold you. Always ready to clasp your hand in his. Always ready for you. Ready-set-start!
["When it becomes hard for you,
I’ll hold onto your hand"]
You didn't know what to do about her, her being the backup dancer you were rumored to be dating. "Hyung you look so cool!" Your members tell you, all five of you gather in front of the laptop. Before you guys is a picture of you kissing her during your checkmate solo. You steal a glance at the lead singer, a soft smile on his face. But behind the lead singer's smile, you could see his eyes telling you a different story, "Yunho ah, these rumors hurt me here." He tells you one day, his hand gently touching his chest - his heart. All you could do is gather him up into your arms, your quivering lips kissing his temples over and over again. You don't think its enough - it isn't. You know how it feels, how much it hurt, because you remember oh so well how your whole body numbed upon seeing his kissing scene with his love interest Han Hyo Joo for his teledrama. You remember how you wished there was some other way, some camera magic - maybe a script change. Anything so he didn't have to kiss her
[I can hear your heart telling me not to let go of your hands,
You can’t hide it, you can’t lie]
Your heart breaks breaks breaks, breaks when you see the articles, 'DONG BANG SHIN KI DISBANDING'. It leaves you and the band stunned, muted by dreadful emotions. "What are we going to do Yunho-ah" he groans to you as you two steal away from the other members into another room, "what are we going to do, our fans" he chokes, and he covers his mouth with his hands. He wants to cry. "JaeJoongie-ah. Don't let this get to you," you say as you put your lips to his forehead. "They must be upset, our fans," he murmurs into your chest. You sigh, because you know its true. The fans have started to panic, and JaeJoong has begun to panic along with them. "But you know JaeJoongie, you know better than anyone. No one is going to tear us apart. No one." You hear him stifle a cry and you blink away your own tears, "because we are Dong Bang Shin ki, JaeJoong, Yunho, Junsu, Yoochun and Changmin. We stand together always." He nods but he doesn't look up, "Listen JaeJoongie. Listen, it's us forever. We promised each other in the beginning of all this. Its us five or nothing." He stops shaking in your arms, and he looks up at you with tear filled eyes, "I know, I know. I know they can't break us up. We won't let it, will we Appa?" he giggles, as you wipe away his tears, "Right Umma." And you know it is going to be okay, because even though the future is uncertain. The fate of Dong Bang Shin Ki is, and you know that there is no way in hell you're letting anyone tear you away from your members, and the man you love more than life itself. You and your members will break all odds, the odds won't break you. Soon, soon you will infinitely kiss those that try to harm you good bye, good bye.
[I can hear your heart; Even if the world turns its back on us;
Even if it’s a painful love, You are my love, you are my soul]
Click to viewcredits to Iheartyunjae; I would suggest muting the volume. :]//
This is really just something I needed to do. Honestly, this was supposed to be a dreadful YunJae angst story, but I couldn't do it. Instead I decided to comfort myself with this. Because I actually can't even write anything proper at all! I needed to write this for me, personally because I do not believe in them disbanding anytime soon, or ever. But seeing the panic surrounding it saddens me, because I know they are saddened by our grief. As I read this over and over, I totally realized I shifted from a YunJae love story to a - dong bang disbandment story. But I really don't mind I suppose. I just need this. I DO realize I do not speak of anything that happened to the other members, or Yunho himself. Basically its just Yunho saying how he came to love JaeJoong. I might write something to accommodate this. But at the moment I'm just - ugh'd out.
I suppose you can tell I haven't written anything in weeks, but honestly - I've been writing everyday. 5 stories lined up, 5 stories I can't even finish because I feel stuck. Just stuck. Some of you, who have me on msn know I've fallen into massive stress. My old perfectionist ways are coming back to me. So please bear with me, for I just don't know what the heck I'm doing anymore.