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well well well. i havent updated in a while. this school yr has flew past. which im hoping is a good thing. im already in a serious relationship which im yet to figure out is what i want or not. i need to slow down. we've already been in school 4 weeks! gosh it feels like one. well, all is hell at my household as usual. when will it be normal, peaceful?? im afraid thats impossible around here. i wish everyone could just be chill and get along for just a while. i sound like i live with 6 brothers and sisters, but really its just me, melissa, my mom, and ed. but its still so freakin dramatic. i very much enjoyed going to church with trevor and mollie today. it was nice. it made me think about how i want to live my life. how its useless unless i live it for something. what better to live for than faith? faith can never let you down or dissapoint you. it can never leave you as long as you are commited to it. i really wanna get involved with more things as well. it feels good to have a few things in my planner. i have a dr. apt. tomorrow so i wont be at school. which is a good and bad thing. there goes my exemptions, but w/e. this weekend i have a party to go to, other than that i think i might stay at home and be good, help my mom with chores. i really wanna work on my relationship with her. (lol, mole: 'will you make me a glass of tea?') i wanna work on being a sweeter person. i can be a bitch to a certain few people at times and im hoping if i work to change that, things will be at peace. for once. man i have been feeling so fat for the past couple of days!! shit! i need to stop eating like a gd pig a the time. thats it! im goin on a major diet. god i need to work out! but i hate it when people bitch about their image instead of gettin off their lazy ass and doin somethin about it, so im gunna shut my mouth and get off my lazy ass. hopefully. please do not offer me cookies, cake, ice cream, candy, soda, muffins, etc. feel free to feed me fruits and veggies tho. =) i love my friends. i love you all. dont forget it. i wanna just have a never-ending weekend to just chill with friends. i want a lot of things tho. i wanna be happy. i wanna know whatll make me happen. i want out of something i got myself into. i want a smoothie. but i cant have what i want. i need to just come to terms with that. well im off to go help with dinner or something. tata loves. muah. night.