black soul chior
kutlo kegbaro
i have no pictures of you. Only memories of the most decent human I have ever met.
I broke your heart for selfish reasons .
You did not diverse that.
You were a good person from a life filled with trauma and pain than American could never understand.
You went back home to Africa 4 years ago.
A place torn by garella warfare, monsters acts of beastly savagery, segregation and governments so evil that they made Hitler look like Mickey mouse..
I wonder every day if you are still alive
I pray at night you live in the harmony your father named you for
if it makes any difference i still remember you and regret braking your heart.
And if there is a God please look after him and keep him safe .he deserves so much more than I could or did give to him
Kutlo I am sorry.
I have been working on a play list that encompasses all the songs that i fell reflect who i believe myself to be . every song on hear is a peace of my identity . it is not complete yet but its getting there
I call it
songs of myself
yes that is a nod to the transcendentalist poets
: http://view.playlist.com/13315211531
1 Afi I am nothing from where I am no one at all
2 Desperado it seems some fine things have been laid upon my table but I only want the ones I cant have I best let somebody love me before its to late
3 Runaway train can you help me remember how to smile how on earth did I get so jaded seems like I should be getting somewhere some how I am nether hear nor there like a mad woman laughing at the rain a little out of touch a little insane its just easer than dealing with my pain
4 waist of paint Thank you, please but your flattery is truly not becoming me.
Your eyes are poor. You are blind. You see, no beauty could have come from me.
I am a waste of breath, of space, of time
5 behind blue eyes No one knows what its like To be the bad man To be the sad man Behind blue eyes To be hated To be fated To telling only lies But my dreams They arent as empty As my conscience seems to be
6 the smithereens blood and roses I want to love but it comes out wrong I want to live but I don't belong I close my eyes and I see Blood and roses
7 I’m not ok I promise But you really need to listen to me Because I'm telling you the truth I mean this, I'm okay! (Trust Me) I'm not okay I'm not okay Well, I'm not okay I'm not o-fucking-kay
8 MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE Famous Last Words But where's your heart? Is it hard understanding I'm incomplete
9 Coma white A pill to make you numb A pill to make you dumb A pill to make you anybody else But all the drugs in this world Wont save her from herself
10 calypso Suzanne Vega I will stand upon the shore With a clean heart And my song in the wind
The sand will sting my feet And the sky will burn It's a lonely time ahead I let him go
11 Don’t let me get me pink Everyday I fight a war against the mirror I can't take the person starin' back at me I'm a hazard to myself
12 The smithereens drown in my own tears all that's left is the pieces of a broken heart maybe i won't be afraid to love somebody new maybe i can open up my heart then i won't drown in my own tears
13 The kiss the cure get it out get it out Get your fucking voice Out of my head I never wanted this I never wanted any of this I wish you were dead
14 Girl Tori Amos Sit in the chair and be good now" And become all that they told you The white coats enter her room She's been everybody else's girl
Maybe one day she'll be her own
15 stretched on your grave sinead O connor
the priests and the friars
approach me in dread
because I still love you
my love and you're dead
I still would be your shelter
through rain and through storm
and with you in your cold grave
I cannot sleep warm
16 Blue October X amount of words solar, bipolar Panic disorder. Seems harder and harder and harder. Still you try to control it. Give me recipes for happy
with the chemicals gone. Drinking freedom from a bottle to the tune of belong Give me recipes for sorry I'm admitting I'm wrong Still your memory that punches me has broken the bone
17 Amie pure Prairie league
18 Zero Emptiness is loneliness, and loneliness is cleanliness
And cleanliness is godliness, and god is empty just like me
Intoxicated with the madness, I'm in love with my sadness
19 Meatloaf 2 out of 3 aint bad Well there's only one man that I will ever love And that was so many year-ears ago And though I know I'll never get him out of my heart he never loved me back, Well I remember how she left me on a stormy night he kissed me and got out of our bedAnd though I pleaded and I begged him not to walk out that door he packed his bags and turned right away- And he kept on tellin' me, And all I can do, is keep on tellin' you I want you , I need you But there ain't no way-ay I'm ever gonna love you Now don't be sad 'Cause two out of three ain't bad
20 Nine inch nails hurt I focus on the pain The only thing that's real The needle tears a hole The old familiar sting Try to kill it all away But I remember everything I will let you down I will make you hurt If I could start again
A million miles away I would keep myself I would find a way
21 bleed like me takes dad's scissors to her skin And when she does relief comes setting in While she hides the scars she's making underneath her pretty clothe Just try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend You should see my scars
22 the Dresden dolls and you might say it's self-indulgent you might say its self-destructive but, you see, it's more productive than if i were to be healthy and you might say its self-inflicted but you see that's contradictive why on earth would anyone practice self destruction?
22 the raven And my soul from out that shadow that lies floating on the floor
Shall be lifted - nevermore!
23 afi the great disappointment I can remember...dreamt them so vividly
Soft creatures draped in white, light kisses gracing me
I can remember when I first realized dreams were the only place to see them I never, never wanted this. I always wanted to believe. How could I have become this ?
24 the smashing pumpkins X. Y.Z. She didn't wanna be, she didn't wanna know She couldn't run away cause she was crazy She gave it all away, she saw her baby break And in the air it hung that she was dull razors And into the eyes of the Jackyl I say ka-boom Now we begin descent, to where we've never been
There is no going back, this wasn't meant to last this is a hell on earth, we are meant to serve
25 16 horsepower black soul choir
Ain't no one ever seen the face of his foe no
He ain't made of flesh & bone
He's the one who sits up close beside you
An when he's there you are alone
Every man is evil yes an every man is a liar
An unashamed with the wicked tongues sing
In the black soul choir
Every man is evil yes an every man is a liar
An unashamed with the wicked tongues sing
In the black soul choir
O i will forgive your wrongs
Yes i am abel
An for my own i feel great shame
I would offer up a brick to the back of your head boy
If i were cain
26 sober tool Theres a shadow just behind me. shrouding every step I take.
Making every promise empty. pointing every finger at me. I am just a worthless liar. I am just an imbecile.
I will only complicate you. trust in me and fall as well.
I will find a center in you. I will chew it up and leave.
I will work to elevate you, just enough to bring you down.
27 John Lennon - Working Class hero They hurt you at home and they hit you at school,
They hate you if you're clever and they despise a fool,
Till you're so fucking crazy you can't follow their rules, When they've tortured and scared you for twenty odd years, Then they expect you to pick a career,
by then you can't really function you're so full of fear,