It's been a long while....
I can honestly say I have no clue why I am using this site again. Maybe because I have an urge to be an emo blogger and facebook has crazy stalkers on it. I was thinking of using this as an online journal. Why not.
So I'm 20 years old. I go through the motions. School, work, family functions, and Kick-backs on the weekend.
I have no real dreams and goals anymore. I just want things to work out. Get a good job find a nice guy, and hope my kid doesn't end up as completely lost as I am.
I'm scared of only 2 days 20/12 and Judgement day. You never know. Everyone thinks their crazy til it comes true.
Today Is an example of a normal BS day for me. My day off and I'm going in to cover a shift. I have nothing better to do and money is nice. I like my job well enough. I make money and it's not hard. But 3 years later I want to do something more, and don't want to put in the effort. So I'm stuck. No one to blame but myself, and I don't pretend to blame others.
So I'll go into work, my sister will have my car again. And there will be no gas again, 70 dollars gone , more than I will make today thats for sure. My mom will have to get me and she will take forever. If i feel up to it I might go to the gym. I have to look good you never know when you might meet your future hubby. And once again It's something to do.
So I'm 20 years old. I go through the motions. School, work, family functions, and Kick-backs on the weekend.
I have no real dreams and goals anymore. I just want things to work out. Get a good job find a nice guy, and hope my kid doesn't end up as completely lost as I am.
I'm scared of only 2 days 20/12 and Judgement day. You never know. Everyone thinks their crazy til it comes true.
Today Is an example of a normal BS day for me. My day off and I'm going in to cover a shift. I have nothing better to do and money is nice. I like my job well enough. I make money and it's not hard. But 3 years later I want to do something more, and don't want to put in the effort. So I'm stuck. No one to blame but myself, and I don't pretend to blame others.
So I'll go into work, my sister will have my car again. And there will be no gas again, 70 dollars gone , more than I will make today thats for sure. My mom will have to get me and she will take forever. If i feel up to it I might go to the gym. I have to look good you never know when you might meet your future hubby. And once again It's something to do.