12.2.23 - call re; donna
Phone rang at 4 am my time which is unusually early, thought it was just an early morning phone call for work, not realizing it was saturday or thinking it was saturday, and thinking what jerk is calling this early. was in such a daze, and literally fell back asleep, never thought in a million years, the news that would befall my ears. hour or two later, hubby got up to go to the bathroom,and said, call your sister, it's 911...i make my phone calls, getting my nephew Kyle, who then tells me that Donna died...WHAT? tears well up in my eyes, as i absorb the news...how can this be? she was just here, sitting on my couch,
he tells me the events, and the tears fall down my cheeks, as i am realizing a world without my oldest sister. She had literally just been at my house 2 months prior, we went to vegas, we went to disneyland, we went to her fav restarurant, El Sur from one of her reality shows. I had a great time with my sister, even with the disagreements that we did have, it was a great time.
this has been hard for me. I usually can write,and tell my feelings, and somehow this feels like she is going to call me, and say, you cam to MA and didnt come see me? or she is going to call and say, what the heck, you dont call me back? Its crazy, for me, how much and how hard this has been to process.
Donna, in case i didnt tell yo enough, i love you, and thank you. thank you for being my oldest sister, thank you for leaning over the crib, and taking care of me. Thank you for naming your daughter after me. Thank you for all the times you answered the phone. Thank you for all the conversations. thank you for the laughter, the tears, and even the times you were mad at me. Thank you just for being my sister. I love you more than words can ever say