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stuck
i can't seem to figure out what why i can't get you out of my mind
why can't i just move on
it's been such a long time
everything has changed
so why does it still matter?
but hey it wouldn't be me if i didn't feel the need to try and fix it?
nothing but a broken situation
why can't i live with that?
i refuse to apologize, to make excuses for myself and others, i can only control myself and while i'm not exactly proud of some of my decisions this past semester, the best thing to do is learn from them and be the better person that i know i am.
this has just been one of those weeks....actually it's like none other i've ever experienced.
*i said "goodbye" to a group of ladies who i became unbelievably close to over such a short period of time. i had no idea anyone could affect my life, inspire me, and bring me so many great experiences in only 8 months.
*i attended my last class of my first year of college. how wierd that is to say? it's been amazing and frustrating, full of fun and tears, i loved it.
*i was reminded that you should never take advantage of a 8 year old friendship because when you're feeling down, that person will know to call you, to ask to come over, and agree to go on a trip that you've made 38734857 times and make new memories along the way.
sometimes it's so hard for me to be completely content with the people i surround myself with because i hate when other people focus on ridiculous, petty rumors and gossip....but then i take a second to think and remember how proud i am to be me, to have the friends and aspirations i do.
still, it's hard to go through life without closure
i can't seem to figure out what why i can't get you out of my mind
why can't i just move on
it's been such a long time
everything has changed
so why does it still matter?
but hey it wouldn't be me if i didn't feel the need to try and fix it?
nothing but a broken situation
why can't i live with that?
i refuse to apologize, to make excuses for myself and others, i can only control myself and while i'm not exactly proud of some of my decisions this past semester, the best thing to do is learn from them and be the better person that i know i am.
this has just been one of those weeks....actually it's like none other i've ever experienced.
*i said "goodbye" to a group of ladies who i became unbelievably close to over such a short period of time. i had no idea anyone could affect my life, inspire me, and bring me so many great experiences in only 8 months.
*i attended my last class of my first year of college. how wierd that is to say? it's been amazing and frustrating, full of fun and tears, i loved it.
*i was reminded that you should never take advantage of a 8 year old friendship because when you're feeling down, that person will know to call you, to ask to come over, and agree to go on a trip that you've made 38734857 times and make new memories along the way.
sometimes it's so hard for me to be completely content with the people i surround myself with because i hate when other people focus on ridiculous, petty rumors and gossip....but then i take a second to think and remember how proud i am to be me, to have the friends and aspirations i do.
still, it's hard to go through life without closure