pish posh
Turns out my boyfriend (now ex) dumped me the day I wrote my last blog. lmao. He wasn't very entertaining to me anyway... and I need my entertainment. He is a fag. He thought he was cool, he thinks he's cool. He kind of is... but not really.
-What I look for in a boyfriend/girlfriend: someone who makes me laugh, who kisses me and hugs me. someone who loves me and tells me they love me. someone who shows me they care and wants to be with me. someone intelligent and honest. someone who isn't afraid to be blunt with me.
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So here I am, sitting here, wondering if this boy really loves me. I've never seen him so how would I really know? I've never been properly introduced in person so how would I really know? Is it wrong of me to question everything he says? I've never seen the kid. But now I'm thinking about Marci and David's relationship. How did they know the other was real or not? They didn't! They just believed in each other. Why can't I just do that with this boy?! (And by real I mean that the other person was truthful with their feelings)
Me and this kid are alike in so many ways. It's rare to find someone who puts hot cheetos and slurpees together (a crazy thing to bring up... but whatever). Ever since Jamie told me about him I've wanted to meet him. I knew I would like him. I wanted to have a friendship with him, maybe even more than that. I knew I'd get him, eventually. Yet here I am, contemplating if what I'm feeling is real, or if it's just my raging hormones. Also if what he's saying is the truth.
He's going to get mad at me if he ever reads this. But if he does, it doesn't matter. Because if he really loves me he'll understand. He'll try to help those doubts leave my mind and replace them with the knowledge that he is there, that he's for real and that he's honest.
I already think I love him. I already want to be with him. But he's so far away that the thought of being with him is absurd.
-What I look for in a boyfriend/girlfriend: someone who makes me laugh, who kisses me and hugs me. someone who loves me and tells me they love me. someone who shows me they care and wants to be with me. someone intelligent and honest. someone who isn't afraid to be blunt with me.
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So here I am, sitting here, wondering if this boy really loves me. I've never seen him so how would I really know? I've never been properly introduced in person so how would I really know? Is it wrong of me to question everything he says? I've never seen the kid. But now I'm thinking about Marci and David's relationship. How did they know the other was real or not? They didn't! They just believed in each other. Why can't I just do that with this boy?! (And by real I mean that the other person was truthful with their feelings)
Me and this kid are alike in so many ways. It's rare to find someone who puts hot cheetos and slurpees together (a crazy thing to bring up... but whatever). Ever since Jamie told me about him I've wanted to meet him. I knew I would like him. I wanted to have a friendship with him, maybe even more than that. I knew I'd get him, eventually. Yet here I am, contemplating if what I'm feeling is real, or if it's just my raging hormones. Also if what he's saying is the truth.
He's going to get mad at me if he ever reads this. But if he does, it doesn't matter. Because if he really loves me he'll understand. He'll try to help those doubts leave my mind and replace them with the knowledge that he is there, that he's for real and that he's honest.
I already think I love him. I already want to be with him. But he's so far away that the thought of being with him is absurd.