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[kriscofries]

Tonight totally turned to shit. I was chillin at D's house like I do every weekend and he was at work. He calls me up and great news honey, I'm coming home early. Yay! So he comes home we eat and start watching "The Jacket" and not even 2 mins into it, his friend calls and says come down here tonight... and of course he goes. I was soooo upset. Not angry, just sad you know (stupid hormones!). So I hurry and pack all my shit before I start bawling in front of him like an idiot and I get the hell out of there. Then I'm on my way home I get angry with myself because I've never been that clingy girlfriend that everyone hates. So I call him up and we meet at the blockbuster where I tell him to not worry about me, I still love him, and to have fun. Am I still upset? Yeah. But mainly at myself. I guess I was used to being able to be so selfish with my time with him and I didn't want to share him. That's what really pisses me off. When did I become that kind of person? I guess this will be one of the 2nd tests we have to see if it's meant to be with us. I have a really bad feeling about this weekend and just hope it's nothing and I'm just being a paranoid clingy bitch.

Onto other news, next Thursday is my last day of class and the following Monday is my last day of clinicals... then I'm off for a whole month! I'm not going to know what to do with myself! Actually I do... I'm going to D's for a week and a half, then I'm heading down to Miami to stay with familia for 2 weeks, then it's back up here to stay with D for 2 more weeks. I am sooo not going to want to go back to school in August.