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okay, so i'm still up and it's almost 4 in the morning. oh well. for some reason i can't fall asleep anytime before like 5 and i don't know why. i don't really care though, it's not like i have to get up early for anything. i don't even have to get up, because i don't have a job or anything. ahh, how upsetting. i'm probably stressing more than i should about this no-job, no-school situation, but i can't help it. i hate just sitting at home doing nothing while everyone else is out making money or learning something. i don't have the desire to go to college right now, but i DO have the desire to make money and not sit on my ass all day. i'm lazy, but not so lazy that i don't want to work. kyle told me that one of the fraternity brothers is manager at Abercrombie in west town and that he'd probably be able to get me a job there for a while, until the hospital gets me on a schedule, so that will be fun. i really like the Abercrombie/Hollister atmosphere for some reason. yay. i'm rather excited, so i hope kyle can pull it off, which i'm sure he can. if not, i'll just talk to the two managers i know at Hollister because they said they'd love for me to come back. :) they are cool as shit.
anyway...my brother told my mom to fuck off today and i was like holy shit. my brother needs anger management i think, but he's hilarious. i love him so much and we're really close, but he's just a dick sometimes. a lot of the time i guess. he's not a dick to me, unless he's joking, so i guess it's okay that he's a dick, except to mom and dad...i'm not cool with that by any means. he'll learn someday. i was a little bitch and hell-raiser until i learned better, he will too eventually.
tonight i met emily and cassie at maryville college's baseball field to sit around and talk for a while...it was the first time i ever really talked to cassie, and i like her. she's funny. too bad she is leaving friday to go to school really far away. that sucks. everyone is leaving and i hate it. i hate it when people leave. i always have. i have this thing with change and i hate it. if i'm used to someone being there, then i don't want them to go away. i don't think that's a good attribute to have, but i can't help it. oh well, there could be worse things.
i had a really wonderful day and was in a really good mood. :-D i really love my boyfriend, he makes me incredibly happy. i think that's why i was so happy today. we had several conversations today that even though they weren't anything extra special, it made me love him ten times more. that seems to happy on a daily basis, i think that's a good thing. he is coming in really soon and i'm excited. i've really missed him a lot. he's my best friend and i miss having him around all of the time. i miss having someone to kiss and hug all the time, and at the same time goof off and laugh and have tons of fun. we're like the same person...i can pretty much say what he's thinking and he can do the same for me. i don't think that happens very often...that you'll find someone that you're so much alike and things are just perfect. him and i really are. we don't ever really argue and when we do, it lasts like a minute and we decide that we don't like arguing and we make up. yay. i hate confrontation with people, but sometimes it's necessary to keep the peace in life. (i sounded really gay right then when i said that-haha) well...i guess i am going to try and get some sleep now.
until next time...
anyway...my brother told my mom to fuck off today and i was like holy shit. my brother needs anger management i think, but he's hilarious. i love him so much and we're really close, but he's just a dick sometimes. a lot of the time i guess. he's not a dick to me, unless he's joking, so i guess it's okay that he's a dick, except to mom and dad...i'm not cool with that by any means. he'll learn someday. i was a little bitch and hell-raiser until i learned better, he will too eventually.
tonight i met emily and cassie at maryville college's baseball field to sit around and talk for a while...it was the first time i ever really talked to cassie, and i like her. she's funny. too bad she is leaving friday to go to school really far away. that sucks. everyone is leaving and i hate it. i hate it when people leave. i always have. i have this thing with change and i hate it. if i'm used to someone being there, then i don't want them to go away. i don't think that's a good attribute to have, but i can't help it. oh well, there could be worse things.
i had a really wonderful day and was in a really good mood. :-D i really love my boyfriend, he makes me incredibly happy. i think that's why i was so happy today. we had several conversations today that even though they weren't anything extra special, it made me love him ten times more. that seems to happy on a daily basis, i think that's a good thing. he is coming in really soon and i'm excited. i've really missed him a lot. he's my best friend and i miss having him around all of the time. i miss having someone to kiss and hug all the time, and at the same time goof off and laugh and have tons of fun. we're like the same person...i can pretty much say what he's thinking and he can do the same for me. i don't think that happens very often...that you'll find someone that you're so much alike and things are just perfect. him and i really are. we don't ever really argue and when we do, it lasts like a minute and we decide that we don't like arguing and we make up. yay. i hate confrontation with people, but sometimes it's necessary to keep the peace in life. (i sounded really gay right then when i said that-haha) well...i guess i am going to try and get some sleep now.
until next time...