Destiny..lifes an hour glass glued to the table.

[kris_s]

Some people are meant to succeed. Others are meant to fail. They are the ones that make you want to succeed. People who you look at and dont want to be. My life is off track and its not going to be put back on. Im soo far off the track that im rusting. I cant handle this. Crying has become breathing for me..its continouse and i cant be around people because i will not only be able to handle it..but ill ruin theyre lives. Maybe im being a victim of my resistance but theres no stopping it now. Bronwen probably hates me, I never talk to Liz, or Haley..even Lau who i used to be soo close to. I was soo close with all of you and i let you slip through my fingers. Rob hates me. Wont stop sending me hate messeges that just break my heart everytime. TElling me how im a fucking loon and now theres no chance of us. How im fucked in the head..oh god thats now even the worst of it. The horrible thing was..i fell for him. Im still falling and about to hit rock bottom. You know the funny thing is...that he kept saying how he thought i had a better head on my shoulders...and thats what soo many people have said to me. So i guess it must be true. I just wish it wasnt. I want to be a good person. I really do..but i cant apparently.

My life is giving out and im giving up. On everything. On love, life..fucking all.