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I feel like limiting the people around me to only the ones who make me feel good inside.
I've felt good around my family lately. sure they yell and some are annoying and frustrating, but i really dont want to spend time with any one else. and as mean as they are to me at time, i love and respect them for letting me just be myself.
I love my friends.
I miss ellery already, i think she should come back already so we can out biking or something.... stacey you should come.
I got a new jacket, it makes me happy and makes me feel very comfortable.
when i was a child i would always tell people how i felt.
so i got a tack in my foot. owch.
I wish people found me to be more helpful. i mean its what i used to be good at with friends.... i was always a peacemaker, and now people dont ever want to talk to me. i mean i know i dont talk to others, but im not THAT bad of a listener, am i? I guess im too insensitive, and i DONT NEED to cry about shit all the time.
so im sorry.
and i dont want to do drugs. I may be facinated by them but im not stupid. stacey? can i start over and be friend #5? haha. if that could count for something.
i like looking the way i do, but it doesnt mean i have to act the way i look. I feel like prooving the world wrong. and thats what i've always wanted to do; let everyone know that someone with intelligence can look the way i do. i dont have to be a nerd, haha. *cough*ariel*cough* haha joking.
people are too full of everything. full of emotion, full of pain, full of hate, full of love, full of problems, full of confusion, full of anger, full of lies, full of shit. you'd think with all the fuckin talking and one on one counselling and just letting out that people would unfill, and let go, and move on, and fuck, i dont even know what to say.
i feel like i know nothing. everyone is living these lives that consist of all this emotion and its normal?? it doesnt feel normal to me. i mean emotion is fine, but the fixation on the bad parts of life.... why is that normal? im just so totally lost in this subject.
P.S. dont worry, im aware of the hypocricy of my entry.
I've felt good around my family lately. sure they yell and some are annoying and frustrating, but i really dont want to spend time with any one else. and as mean as they are to me at time, i love and respect them for letting me just be myself.
I love my friends.
I miss ellery already, i think she should come back already so we can out biking or something.... stacey you should come.
I got a new jacket, it makes me happy and makes me feel very comfortable.
when i was a child i would always tell people how i felt.
so i got a tack in my foot. owch.
I wish people found me to be more helpful. i mean its what i used to be good at with friends.... i was always a peacemaker, and now people dont ever want to talk to me. i mean i know i dont talk to others, but im not THAT bad of a listener, am i? I guess im too insensitive, and i DONT NEED to cry about shit all the time.
so im sorry.
and i dont want to do drugs. I may be facinated by them but im not stupid. stacey? can i start over and be friend #5? haha. if that could count for something.
i like looking the way i do, but it doesnt mean i have to act the way i look. I feel like prooving the world wrong. and thats what i've always wanted to do; let everyone know that someone with intelligence can look the way i do. i dont have to be a nerd, haha. *cough*ariel*cough* haha joking.
people are too full of everything. full of emotion, full of pain, full of hate, full of love, full of problems, full of confusion, full of anger, full of lies, full of shit. you'd think with all the fuckin talking and one on one counselling and just letting out that people would unfill, and let go, and move on, and fuck, i dont even know what to say.
i feel like i know nothing. everyone is living these lives that consist of all this emotion and its normal?? it doesnt feel normal to me. i mean emotion is fine, but the fixation on the bad parts of life.... why is that normal? im just so totally lost in this subject.
P.S. dont worry, im aware of the hypocricy of my entry.