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So, the ball was fun. Everyone looked really amazing. I suppose dressing up sometimes can be fun. I thought I was going to be sitting there alone all night but thankfully, I have great friends. Neville and I danced and then we sat and talked for a little bit. Then, Dean came over when Neville went back over to Gabrielle and we talked. Then, we danced. I must say, those two are really great dancers! It surprised me since most boys are age can't dance at all. I guess going without a date wasn't all that bad. If anyone hears anything about what happened the night of the Ball, please let me know...
I haven't gotten much sleep. The night of the ball reminded me too much of Halloween.
Anyway, Dean and I saw Joe. He was fighting (why does that not surprise me?) with Helga about music. Honestly, does he need to fight all the time? Sometimes, I really really miss him. Like tonight. It would have been great to have been there with him, dancing and having fun. I saw all the happy couples and it made me cringe a little bit. But then there are times, again, like tonight, when I think I'm better off like this. I don't know.
I didn't see Chad at the ball. Neville told me he was outside of the Great Hall. Not that I was looking for him. Of course not. Arg. I'm surprised I didn't see him when I walked in. He's probably been avoiding me. I know he hates me. Even though I shouldn't care if he does or not. As I said to Neville before, I don't know how I'm attracted to two guys that are complete opposites and happen to hate..no, not hate...loathe each other. Plus, Chad and I are complete opposites. I'd never have a chance with someone like him. He's more mature, more goal oriented, more practical, smarter, better looking and of course, he's pureblood. So yeah, that's out of the question. I guess Chad was right with what he said the other day; dangerous guys keep my attention. I wish they didn't. Neville's right though...he does strut around like a pompous peacock. Bleh. Stupid boys. Stupid me.
I still have these feelings for Joe. I wish I didn't. I really wish I didn't. I want so badly for things to be normal but they aren't. They're weirder than ever. The other night, Neville and I went to find Joe and I talked with him for a little while. It was so awkward. We had nothing to say. I'm surprised he didn't bring up Chad's party or anything. Then, thankfully, Neville came in. That was even weirder though. I feel so bad for putting him in the middle of it.
I need mental help. Really badly.
Home is good. Very good. Things between my parents and I are better. I get to see my friends. Yeah, I'm really really really happy to be home...
I haven't gotten much sleep. The night of the ball reminded me too much of Halloween.
Anyway, Dean and I saw Joe. He was fighting (why does that not surprise me?) with Helga about music. Honestly, does he need to fight all the time? Sometimes, I really really miss him. Like tonight. It would have been great to have been there with him, dancing and having fun. I saw all the happy couples and it made me cringe a little bit. But then there are times, again, like tonight, when I think I'm better off like this. I don't know.
I didn't see Chad at the ball. Neville told me he was outside of the Great Hall. Not that I was looking for him. Of course not. Arg. I'm surprised I didn't see him when I walked in. He's probably been avoiding me. I know he hates me. Even though I shouldn't care if he does or not. As I said to Neville before, I don't know how I'm attracted to two guys that are complete opposites and happen to hate..no, not hate...loathe each other. Plus, Chad and I are complete opposites. I'd never have a chance with someone like him. He's more mature, more goal oriented, more practical, smarter, better looking and of course, he's pureblood. So yeah, that's out of the question. I guess Chad was right with what he said the other day; dangerous guys keep my attention. I wish they didn't. Neville's right though...he does strut around like a pompous peacock. Bleh. Stupid boys. Stupid me.
I still have these feelings for Joe. I wish I didn't. I really wish I didn't. I want so badly for things to be normal but they aren't. They're weirder than ever. The other night, Neville and I went to find Joe and I talked with him for a little while. It was so awkward. We had nothing to say. I'm surprised he didn't bring up Chad's party or anything. Then, thankfully, Neville came in. That was even weirder though. I feel so bad for putting him in the middle of it.
I need mental help. Really badly.
Home is good. Very good. Things between my parents and I are better. I get to see my friends. Yeah, I'm really really really happy to be home...