its been awhile
well well well i haven't updated this in while so everyones heard about what happened to joe marsh, he'll always be #1 in are hearts and #1 on the field, i love you joe ..
this week has gone by so slow, last weeked was so horrible .. alot of bad shit happened that i'd rather not even discuss i worked 1 day last week and i work 2 days this week, =) yay, sometimes i just need to get away hopefully i'll hve that chance soon enough.
i should have listened to you in the beginning i've known you were right but becuase i'm so stubborn i ignored the issuse, now its almost to late, but i hate it .. i hate how its always me in the wrong .. but i've notice something, i am strong enough, i can do it .. if you don't believe in me then i'm sorry, but the day i do prove you wrong, will be the day you reliezed how much you were missing out on, everyone makes mistakes .. and they learn from them, thats where you went wrong, you think i do everything wrong, why should i impress you, you know the real me . why don't you understand now ? figures you wouldn't .. you'll figure out what i'm talking about .. why do you fake it . why do you put on an act ? why can't you show everyone the real you . its not hard i'm not theo nly one who believes in you .. ok next time you might understand .. just remember you never know if i'm always going to be here, what if something goes wrong, then what? would that be ok ?
so things are improving w/ crys n nikki and i friendships i know its not HUGE, but its a start, things haven't gone back to normal but were starting to hang out more, and talk every night, i'm glad they understand me .. =) and forgive me for the number of mistakes i have made, i love u ladies!
sooooo ken kenn .. we have to work tomorrow n friday, this should be exciting lol, i loooooooooooove you kennnnnny hehe =) we need to get away, and go on a roadtrip .. maybe to nan n jbs hehe .. a little bit of country .. haha and a wee bit of lake water hah oke dokie much looooove
theres so much to say, but the words aren't deep enough, maybe they'll come to mind, if not oh well <3