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i feel like my world is crashing down. i want to just give up and say its over. i dont understand. like at all. all i want is to curl up in a ball and cry but i cant because hes here. hes always here and usually it doesnt bother me until now. we had a huge fight last night and today we seemed finebut i dont know anymore. i dont know if we will even make it. im not sujre he even wants us to. maybe he'd love to meet some like georgous hott young blonde or something. i dont know what else to do. maybe if i go on a really serious diet he'll change his mind. maybe if i work harder to make myself pretty. i guessi always just felt so comfortable with him and never thought id ever think that i would have to change for him but i guess i was wrong. starting tomorrow.. strict diet. ill start working out and swimming everyday. i never thought id change for a guy..but hes special to me. i just hope it works.
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