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so im not exactly sure what my problem is these days. im being a bitch to the one person who i love and who seems like the only person who TRUELY cares about me and im pushing him away. im making him feel like he shouldnt even try to be with me anymore. roger is by far the best thing thats ever happened to me and im just throwing everything out the window. the one relationship that i relaly want to last for a logn ass time and im ruining it. i hope i can make things better. i need to work out everything in my head. im gonna have a serious talk with him tonight if he calls which would be SOOO Much better if he was here but he has to go jump again so i just have to tell him everything over the phone. i need to do it tonight because then that will give me 3 more days to myself that so i can figure out what the hell is going on. i really hope it isnt too late. im sure its not. hes not gonna give up that easy but i hate knowing that i made him feel like that. i want him to be the happiest person alive. i cant wait to talk to him. 2 more hours and i can get everything out.