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blah blah blah blah blah just so ahhh idk feeling so so so so so so wierd. idk if im mad or sad or upset or i just dont know. i just have to write something idk i cant sleep and i have to go to work in the AM :(idk i just feel like i need to sit and think/ponder about many many things.i just feel like throwing things accross the room. i feel like there is a lot of rage inside and i am not really sure as to why. Is that bad??i just get so mad and i need to take it out on someone/something and thats not always right. I wish i could relive the past 2 or 3 days maybe then i would feel better. I feel like things are falling apart but at the same time not - i feel torn and confused and just in general strange. i just wish someone/something would come and fix the probs in my life - not that they are that major. The crap in my life is nothing compared to what other people have to deal with - i have food shelter clothing an ok job and loving people in my life ->so why the hell am in complaining??? like for example right now i am watching mtv and stories about kids that are addicted to drugs and drinking and i dont even have any of the shit in my life. so i guess its just the little things that dont really matter but at the same time have a huge impact on me. i feel like im just going to snap like if some customer gives me crap tomorrow im just going to be like get the fuck out of my store lol that would be so so so funny lol o man i would be so fired. they would just throw me right out of the store no questions asked. So where do i go from here????
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