grr...
Why can a guy have a hold on you to the extent of not wanting to get into another relationship or friendship with a guy?! That's my state right now. I'm mad at myself that i'm in this position and i'm mad that i let the other guy get me here. I feel like i'm waiting for his next move and if it's in my direction then i'll be okay and if it's not then i have to either snap out of it or move on! I will most certainly move on!! But how did i get here?? It's like he knew that i would hang out and be there for him regardless and i'm not that person.
As for the other dude who called me today and i'm not returning his call...i'm not starting anything because i know i'm just physically attracted to him, not in any other way! That's hard to accept so i figured if i don't call him and forget that he called, he'll forget about me since i don't see him unless one of us makes an effort. Well, i'm still keeping options open for other guys and not the one whom is just a friend yet i'm still attracted to. The reason i'm not waiting for him is cause if i do, he won't want me. If i don't wait then he'll get the clue and see what he's missing. I shouldn't have called him today and i won't call him again at all. He has to make the move! We are just friends and i know that now. I can't help but be attracted to him though, he's everything i would usually want in a guy. If he was ever around and had a car, it would make hanging out easier but oh well. Plus, he'll be on the road a lot and has a girlfriend to keep in touch with already so why would he want a friend to keep in touch with as well?! One female is more than enough. I have to go before i make a bitter comment about anything.
As for the other dude who called me today and i'm not returning his call...i'm not starting anything because i know i'm just physically attracted to him, not in any other way! That's hard to accept so i figured if i don't call him and forget that he called, he'll forget about me since i don't see him unless one of us makes an effort. Well, i'm still keeping options open for other guys and not the one whom is just a friend yet i'm still attracted to. The reason i'm not waiting for him is cause if i do, he won't want me. If i don't wait then he'll get the clue and see what he's missing. I shouldn't have called him today and i won't call him again at all. He has to make the move! We are just friends and i know that now. I can't help but be attracted to him though, he's everything i would usually want in a guy. If he was ever around and had a car, it would make hanging out easier but oh well. Plus, he'll be on the road a lot and has a girlfriend to keep in touch with already so why would he want a friend to keep in touch with as well?! One female is more than enough. I have to go before i make a bitter comment about anything.