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COLLEGE. (gasp!)
Who could have guess that a 15-year-old girl could enter College? Quite peculiar-maybe but for someone like me, of course not! Gone are the grade school days and the high school years and now, here comes College!
It was like yesterday..I'm dressing up my Barbies, playing china plates with pals and now, (whew!) raiding TeenVogue for fashion picks, getting insane for an outfit! How Tempus fugit! (time flies).
*I'm taking up Architecture in a state college here in Philippines. Matter-of-fact, it was a spur-of-the-moment decision for me. I was so dead confused as to what course will i choose but as always, my dad's decision prevailed. At first I was sort of thinking that I couldn't do it but thanks to my reading power hobby, i have read from a magazine, "there are a lot of 'somebody else' in this world but only few made a significant achievement and YOU are going to make that achievement!". Reading that oh-so inspirational encouragement just couldn't help myself clenching my fist with a wave of new hope and determination. I was sort of magically veiled with a garment of faith in our Amighty God. Positive energy and a beam of intense optimism paved my way to dream and aim more. The hesitation and regret faded and i just said to myself that I'm doing this not for my own sake, but for my dad. I just wanna make him proud, is all. I wanna make my family happy and proud of me..*
June 10, 2008...7:00am :-)
first day of school
It was all a blur to me. Seeing incredibly strange environment, different kinds of people, everything was sooo sooo "oh-my-God!". Suddenly, I just found myself in a corner of the school cafeteria, all alone! I made a new friend but I was'nt that comfortable, not at all. My confidence-o-meter went low and worse, got wrecked. I don't know what to do. I guess I was just feeling a bit of topsy-turvy thing because everything seemed "new" to me. It wasn't until the end of the day when I came to my old self again. I was kinda relieved and a little relaxed. I sighed, "i need to survive! I just need to!". College is tough and if i show a hint of any weakness right now, I'd be impossible to stand..