I'm done.
Whatever was going on with me and Sammy is over. I can tell.
Am I bummed? Yes. Do I want to know why? Most definitely. If he makes any attempt to get in touch I'll probably reciprocate, if I have time. But I will never, ever make an overture again.
Because I don't fucking need this. I don't need to be toyed with, I don't want to always be wondering why he's not getting in touch, why he liked me last week but doesn't seem to give a shit this week.
Sonia pointed it out. I asked if he wanted to go for a walk and he texted back to say that he was out with friends. And Sonia point blank asked what I was getting out of this. And she said that she could tell I thought about it all the time, and that nothing about it was making me happy. Which is true, right now. It made me happy at the beginning when he wasn't being a dick. It makes me tense and makes me constantly doubt myself/my attractiveness/my ability to interest people.
So, I'm done.
In other news, I started blog. I'll probably still keep lj for emo posts like this, but my blog will be for random musings and updates on things I like and do and stuff. The web address is here http://musingsofadomesticfeminist.blogspot.com/.
I don't know how to make it a link. But check it outttttttt
Am I bummed? Yes. Do I want to know why? Most definitely. If he makes any attempt to get in touch I'll probably reciprocate, if I have time. But I will never, ever make an overture again.
Because I don't fucking need this. I don't need to be toyed with, I don't want to always be wondering why he's not getting in touch, why he liked me last week but doesn't seem to give a shit this week.
Sonia pointed it out. I asked if he wanted to go for a walk and he texted back to say that he was out with friends. And Sonia point blank asked what I was getting out of this. And she said that she could tell I thought about it all the time, and that nothing about it was making me happy. Which is true, right now. It made me happy at the beginning when he wasn't being a dick. It makes me tense and makes me constantly doubt myself/my attractiveness/my ability to interest people.
So, I'm done.
In other news, I started blog. I'll probably still keep lj for emo posts like this, but my blog will be for random musings and updates on things I like and do and stuff. The web address is here http://musingsofadomesticfeminist.blogspot.com/.
I don't know how to make it a link. But check it outttttttt