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Ever sit in your room at night, listening to your music on headphones, and question yourself wether or not you should give up on everything because of the fear of knowing that it'll go nowhere? (Not give up on life, tards.)
Thats how I feel right now. But I'm also here trying to keep a positive outlook on things as they are now and the people I have in my heart. But I also sometimes hide my feelings in fear of thinking their gonna get shot down.
*Sigh*
James and Rashad are going to Florida for Spring Break and I can't go. So there goes two friends. Most likely I'm just gonna stay home and be bored unless someone calls me up to hang out, but eh. I dunno if that'll happen. I need to skate friday, if its not too cold.
A LJ isn't a good LJ without that one dose of self-insultion. But I also realize I have nothing to bitch over, even though I'm not. I'm just trying my best to work things out, slowly working my magic to reach the goal. Its just that I'm scared, very scared, that I will make a wrong turn and fail. I have before and its taken its toll on me. If the slightest mistake happen I get in an extreme paranoid mode that my objective has been discinerated at that smallest cut.
God I'm such a loser.
Thats how I feel right now. But I'm also here trying to keep a positive outlook on things as they are now and the people I have in my heart. But I also sometimes hide my feelings in fear of thinking their gonna get shot down.
*Sigh*
James and Rashad are going to Florida for Spring Break and I can't go. So there goes two friends. Most likely I'm just gonna stay home and be bored unless someone calls me up to hang out, but eh. I dunno if that'll happen. I need to skate friday, if its not too cold.
A LJ isn't a good LJ without that one dose of self-insultion. But I also realize I have nothing to bitch over, even though I'm not. I'm just trying my best to work things out, slowly working my magic to reach the goal. Its just that I'm scared, very scared, that I will make a wrong turn and fail. I have before and its taken its toll on me. If the slightest mistake happen I get in an extreme paranoid mode that my objective has been discinerated at that smallest cut.
God I'm such a loser.