You'll See Me Sometime
*chuckles*
Whats up world? Its December 24th! Christmas Eve! That is, the Eve before Christmas. That is, the day before Christmas. That is, less than 24 hours before Christmas.
christmas....Christmas....CHRISTMAS.
What the crap is that? What IS Christmas?
The majority of you have crammed these last 2 months with hurrying around, buying this, buying that, taking this back, keeping that. Putting up Christmas trees, putting up lights, having little Christmas parties at work places and at school organizations. Everybody has this..happiness about them at Christmas. Is it the snow? The lights? The tree? Or is it all those things together that makes everyone so happy? Why on earth is everyone so nice to everyone at Christmas?
Those of you who know me at all know that I wouldn't just write a GOOD thing in here about Christmas b/c I never just keep it happy...I've always gotta code in some of my deeper, inner thoughts and see if any of you who read this are smart enough to see behind the words and look deeper. Nothing I say is ever just said. To whichever one of you who looks deeper and finds what I'm wanting you to look for, congratulations. You'll be the first.
Another transparent soul walks by you. Not transparent as in you can see deep into her soul, deep into who she is, transparent as in you don't see her at all. You think you know, but you have no idea. Our world, yes OUR world, not your world or my world, OUR world is so conceited. Walk through the halls of our schools and watch people. Watch how people react to situations, how people react to new kids, to someone who's different, not the norm. There are a certain number of people who are accepted for being different. Accepted for having their own set of values, beliefs and opinions on life. The rest? Are shunned, abandoned, left on their own. Because for whatever reason someone didn't like them, didn't accept them and so just like our society does the word gets around and it ends up NOONE likes that person.
I have no idea why I just gave you that random piece of information but there ya go. Eat up. LoL WoW
To those of you out there who don't have a heart, tell me this...
Did you ever have one? Do you still have one and just don't show it? Or how in the world can you treat people the way you do and still be able to live with yourself? How do you do it? My biggest weakness right now is caring too much. I swear it is. Some people call it "compassion" I call it weakness. At the end of the day all I want to do is treat you like you treat me. I want to you, tear you down, rip you apart, like you do me. I want to be able to look you in the eye and say I you, tell you how I really feel about you. And you know what? "Compassion" won't let me. Because I know that if you felt a fraction of this "pain" that I feel, it would kill you. Your not strong enough to carry it. How do I know that? Because I've spent my entire life carrying this burden, this weight and I'm barely strong enough to carry it. If I've done it my entire life, carried this burden, why would you be strong enough right now? I've said this to a lot of people but just hear me out. Take in this world, not just the good parts like Christmas, money and rich people. Take in all of it. All the starving people, all the peple who have so much pain, all the rapists. Take a good look at the world and soak it all in. Instead of shrugging it off and saying you can't do anything to fix it, make their failure's your fault. Take all this world's pain, failures and screw ups and make them your fault. Carry that burden around for awhile. See how you feel. Then when your used to carrying that, when your knees and shoulders know how it feels to carry that weight, make it your job, your responsibility to make it better. Make it your job to cure the world of w/e it is thats infected it. Now stand up. You can't right? Yea, didn't figure you'd be able to. Don't even try to stand again, you'll hurt yourself. Take off the burden, unload it and run like hell like the rest of them have. Leave it here and watch me pick it up for you and laugh as I struggle beneath the weight of it. But I'm laughing because you couldn't pick it up at all, you couldn't handle the burden and you ran. I'm still standing. Remember that.
Whats up world? Its December 24th! Christmas Eve! That is, the Eve before Christmas. That is, the day before Christmas. That is, less than 24 hours before Christmas.
christmas....Christmas....CHRISTMAS.
What the crap is that? What IS Christmas?
The majority of you have crammed these last 2 months with hurrying around, buying this, buying that, taking this back, keeping that. Putting up Christmas trees, putting up lights, having little Christmas parties at work places and at school organizations. Everybody has this..happiness about them at Christmas. Is it the snow? The lights? The tree? Or is it all those things together that makes everyone so happy? Why on earth is everyone so nice to everyone at Christmas?
Those of you who know me at all know that I wouldn't just write a GOOD thing in here about Christmas b/c I never just keep it happy...I've always gotta code in some of my deeper, inner thoughts and see if any of you who read this are smart enough to see behind the words and look deeper. Nothing I say is ever just said. To whichever one of you who looks deeper and finds what I'm wanting you to look for, congratulations. You'll be the first.
Another transparent soul walks by you. Not transparent as in you can see deep into her soul, deep into who she is, transparent as in you don't see her at all. You think you know, but you have no idea. Our world, yes OUR world, not your world or my world, OUR world is so conceited. Walk through the halls of our schools and watch people. Watch how people react to situations, how people react to new kids, to someone who's different, not the norm. There are a certain number of people who are accepted for being different. Accepted for having their own set of values, beliefs and opinions on life. The rest? Are shunned, abandoned, left on their own. Because for whatever reason someone didn't like them, didn't accept them and so just like our society does the word gets around and it ends up NOONE likes that person.
I have no idea why I just gave you that random piece of information but there ya go. Eat up. LoL WoW
To those of you out there who don't have a heart, tell me this...
Did you ever have one? Do you still have one and just don't show it? Or how in the world can you treat people the way you do and still be able to live with yourself? How do you do it? My biggest weakness right now is caring too much. I swear it is. Some people call it "compassion" I call it weakness. At the end of the day all I want to do is treat you like you treat me. I want to you, tear you down, rip you apart, like you do me. I want to be able to look you in the eye and say I you, tell you how I really feel about you. And you know what? "Compassion" won't let me. Because I know that if you felt a fraction of this "pain" that I feel, it would kill you. Your not strong enough to carry it. How do I know that? Because I've spent my entire life carrying this burden, this weight and I'm barely strong enough to carry it. If I've done it my entire life, carried this burden, why would you be strong enough right now? I've said this to a lot of people but just hear me out. Take in this world, not just the good parts like Christmas, money and rich people. Take in all of it. All the starving people, all the peple who have so much pain, all the rapists. Take a good look at the world and soak it all in. Instead of shrugging it off and saying you can't do anything to fix it, make their failure's your fault. Take all this world's pain, failures and screw ups and make them your fault. Carry that burden around for awhile. See how you feel. Then when your used to carrying that, when your knees and shoulders know how it feels to carry that weight, make it your job, your responsibility to make it better. Make it your job to cure the world of w/e it is thats infected it. Now stand up. You can't right? Yea, didn't figure you'd be able to. Don't even try to stand again, you'll hurt yourself. Take off the burden, unload it and run like hell like the rest of them have. Leave it here and watch me pick it up for you and laugh as I struggle beneath the weight of it. But I'm laughing because you couldn't pick it up at all, you couldn't handle the burden and you ran. I'm still standing. Remember that.