Ever So Slightly
New Job is going well. I feel really ill prepared most of the day and my Trainer isn't the best at explaining expectations. She is getting married soon so I guess her mind is some where else.
I've been realizing I need to do something about my anxiety. I've been really good about keeping myself in control but I still have frequent anxiety, panic attacks, and I am almost in capable of dealing with the unexpected. I function well with structure but if it fails I lose it a little.
Although my new job is going well and I am making good progress after all I still feel dragged down but my mind....
Work last night was interesting - The first time I saw someone get taken down. It was an odd thing to witness; someone who is so out of control yet you feel so bad for them, he is a kid and had such a hard life that in his early teens he's dealing with things that I can't comprehend. Fear and Compassion mixed together.
At least in the future I won't be so broke -- I'm getting paid a lot more now and from what I understand I am going to be working al ot of hours! This is a good step to going back to school. I hope to go back in 09 if I'm lucky enough to get my act together.
Thats it for now I guess. I'm good but on the edge...
Love Always,
KP
Ps: I'm planning on my new tattoo as soon as possible -- Justin is going to be pissed!!
I've been realizing I need to do something about my anxiety. I've been really good about keeping myself in control but I still have frequent anxiety, panic attacks, and I am almost in capable of dealing with the unexpected. I function well with structure but if it fails I lose it a little.
Although my new job is going well and I am making good progress after all I still feel dragged down but my mind....
Work last night was interesting - The first time I saw someone get taken down. It was an odd thing to witness; someone who is so out of control yet you feel so bad for them, he is a kid and had such a hard life that in his early teens he's dealing with things that I can't comprehend. Fear and Compassion mixed together.
At least in the future I won't be so broke -- I'm getting paid a lot more now and from what I understand I am going to be working al ot of hours! This is a good step to going back to school. I hope to go back in 09 if I'm lucky enough to get my act together.
Thats it for now I guess. I'm good but on the edge...
Love Always,
KP
Ps: I'm planning on my new tattoo as soon as possible -- Justin is going to be pissed!!