Crappy

[krilljoy]

What is it about the holidays that makes people sad? Just thinking about Thanksgiving and Christmas make me want to cry. I don't even celebrate Christmas! Sigh... Another year, another year without my sister here for the holidays. It really sucks. Also, my cousin Michael died December 5th of last year. The last time I saw him was over Thanksgiving when my parents and I drove to Knoxville to see him. We pretty much knew that if we didn't see him then, that we would never see him again. The time was well spent. He's the only real reason I love the movie "White Chicks." LOL We watched that and "Rushmore" the last time I saw him...the night before my mom and I drove home from Knoxville. I miss him so much. Although the holidays suck right now, it does make me appreciate the good things I have in life right now. I'm so lucky to have Sarah in my life. She's so wonderful, kind, funny, sweet, and loving. My life feels complete with her in it. I'm lucky to have a family, flaws and all, I love them. I know they aren't perfect, but they are my family and I love them. I have some good friends. Even if I don't see them all the time, I know that we can pick right up were we left off. I may not have a whole lot of friends, but I know who I can count on when I need something. I would rather have a few good friends, than a bunch of people pretending to be my friend only to not be there when I really need them.
All of this is a sad/happy thing. I'm happy to have what I have, but I'm sad that I have lost a close loved one and that my sister isn't here right now. Thank God her contract with the Marines will be up soon. I can't wait to have her back in the States.
Good night all.