alot of thoughts.....
ive been thinking ALOT about me and scott and Jeff and everything. and ive figured out my hesitation with scott. i dont want to go out with him but i dont want to hurt him. I'm sorry scott, i REALLY REALLY am but the more i think about it the more 1/2 and 1/2 i am. And if u have doubt about a relationship you shouldnt do it. Although you keep saying ur not as much of a goodie goodie as i think, i still feel u r. I smoke, you dont and you shouldn't i wish i didnt. I cut and am depresed, and our religions are FAR from being similar. You belive in God and i belive in the Goddess and God. I drink, i party im not a virgin. You are, which isnt a bad thing were just REALLY different and although you say that i wouldn't corupt you i think i would and i cant deal with that stress. Jeff is just more like me, hes goth and he smokes and i like the person you are i really really do. But we're just not meant to be together. im sorry. I really like you and im sure u will make some girl REALLY happy, but right now just take it easy. What we had and what i thought we'd have was GREAT but i can't go on beliving that that is the best for me right now, or you. I'm sorry Scott but we shouldnt be together. I understand if u never want to talk to me again! :( i am SOOOO sorry