Baby Don't Go.
I'm feeling a bit depressed.
Ever feel like you're being attacked by your past?
I'm a changed person. I went through a period in my life where everything was experimental. My friends, my boyfriends, my sports, my grades,...my everything. It's so difficult. Feeling like you don't have anyone. To be perfectly honest, I don't have just oneFRIEND I can depend on. I don't have ONE close friend. Kind of pathetic? I think so. I'm not just ranting here, I'm not just feeling like total crap,...this is the truth. If I had friends who cared about me they'd know what was going on with me all the time.
Highschool is pretty crappy. All I see is a bunch of MEAN girls who are trying to figure out who the heck they are (including myself) and a bunch of boys who try to fake their identity by being assholes to everyone that they think is "lower" in some made up highschool status. Did I mention how materialistic everyone is? Gosh that makes me sick... yeah, the day I pay a ton of money to look like some other girl is the day that pigs fly backwards. Oh, did I forget that the man-whores in our school are popular, and the girls that get around, are called whores? What is that? That's the same thing. Half the boys that think they're "the shit" (pardon me) are just afraid. Yeah, that's right. They're afraid of looking like idiots in front of their so-called friends so they try to make other people feel like shit. We witness this crap everyday. I see it, you see it. Everyone's insecurities are pushed on to other people and that makes up highschool drama... can you believe it? It starts with ONE person's insecurities. In fact, I find it kind of funny. Oh, and another thing. Outgoing teenagers that drink because they think it'll losen them up? What kind of BULLSHIT is that? Am I wrong here? Losen you up? Who are you kidding? You just want to get drunk so you can ACT like you don't have a grip on yourself... so then that way you can blame your fucking actions on the alcohol. That's way mature.. you can't make a move when you're sober? If you can't..well, that sucks and I'm going to tell you right now, don't quit your day job. Girls can flirt too, and if she's not flirting back,.. here's a penny, go buy a clue, she doesn't like you. Another thing. Do boys not know what the word "NO" means? Yeah, I don't think so. Learn it. Learn it real good.. or you're going to get a swift kick in the balls.
Yeah that's it. Good effing night.