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Well I'm feeling a lot more together now. I'm gonna miss my dad so, so much but my mum said that my dad died 5 months ago and that he was at peace now and it is true. He was just a shell and I'm happy he's been released from that horrible world.
I'm still unbeleavably down, I really do miss him, and the house feels empty but I'm starting to look forward rather than back. It's the most horrible thing watching your own father waste away over the course of months to almost nothing but there is a sense of relef as well.
I tell you another thing, you certainly know who you're real friends are at a time like this. Folk who are supposed to be mates with you give you a wide berth, well that just shows what kind of folk they are. Is a phoen call or a text too much? Obviously to some of the horrors that call themselves human beings out there. To all the folk who had the good nature and the heart to say something to me thank you so much, it really did help.
I'm especially gratefull to Wee gee and Debz. They asked if they could come to the funeral which really touched me and I'm glad they're gonna be there. Wee Gee took me out last night for a wee blether in the local and it helped a shitload too.
Hehe, It was just like old times sitting blethering about music. I was telling him all about the new project I was getting started (And which is starting to look rather fruitfull). LOL turns out out of the 4 New songs I have done and lyrics for one of the new Dionysus songs has the same name. Creepy or whit. Obviously the comparisons with the old Da'Nysus are going to be enevatable, but wee gee has taken over vthe reins writing wise and as a result his band have become much darker. I'll continue to do what I always have done so that'll make both bands different enough.
I'm looking at it as a kind of Inflames & Soilwork kind of thing. Both bands sound similar but are diffrent enough to do their own thing.
This has been the first glimmer of light & hope I've had in the last 6 months. What with Linzi causing her shit, my dad getting diagnosed and now passing away and false friends and their ego crap, I really needed something and I'm not afraid to admit that I'm very excited about it, very excited indeed! :-D
An this time no women to mess it all up. I've found such calm being on my own and I've realised in myself that I don't need someone in my life all the time to make me whole. All my insecurities have vanashed and I'm strong enough to CHOOSE this path rather than have it forced apon me. I still beleve in the whole farytale, dream love thing and it's be nice but I've realised that while I'd like it, I don't NEED it. And right now I don't want anyone in my life except my mates!
Jag on my friends!
I'm still unbeleavably down, I really do miss him, and the house feels empty but I'm starting to look forward rather than back. It's the most horrible thing watching your own father waste away over the course of months to almost nothing but there is a sense of relef as well.
I tell you another thing, you certainly know who you're real friends are at a time like this. Folk who are supposed to be mates with you give you a wide berth, well that just shows what kind of folk they are. Is a phoen call or a text too much? Obviously to some of the horrors that call themselves human beings out there. To all the folk who had the good nature and the heart to say something to me thank you so much, it really did help.
I'm especially gratefull to Wee gee and Debz. They asked if they could come to the funeral which really touched me and I'm glad they're gonna be there. Wee Gee took me out last night for a wee blether in the local and it helped a shitload too.
Hehe, It was just like old times sitting blethering about music. I was telling him all about the new project I was getting started (And which is starting to look rather fruitfull). LOL turns out out of the 4 New songs I have done and lyrics for one of the new Dionysus songs has the same name. Creepy or whit. Obviously the comparisons with the old Da'Nysus are going to be enevatable, but wee gee has taken over vthe reins writing wise and as a result his band have become much darker. I'll continue to do what I always have done so that'll make both bands different enough.
I'm looking at it as a kind of Inflames & Soilwork kind of thing. Both bands sound similar but are diffrent enough to do their own thing.
This has been the first glimmer of light & hope I've had in the last 6 months. What with Linzi causing her shit, my dad getting diagnosed and now passing away and false friends and their ego crap, I really needed something and I'm not afraid to admit that I'm very excited about it, very excited indeed! :-D
An this time no women to mess it all up. I've found such calm being on my own and I've realised in myself that I don't need someone in my life all the time to make me whole. All my insecurities have vanashed and I'm strong enough to CHOOSE this path rather than have it forced apon me. I still beleve in the whole farytale, dream love thing and it's be nice but I've realised that while I'd like it, I don't NEED it. And right now I don't want anyone in my life except my mates!
Jag on my friends!