March 6
Less then 5 minutes ago I was overwhelmed by an immense feeling of disappointment. I’ve been holding it back for a few weeks now and today the barriers just couldn’t hold it back.
I was in the middle of alpha sorting a pile of paper that need to be filed away and my mind shot out “You are such a sham.”
I’ve been feeling like that a lot lately. I go to work almost every day and feel like I’m a bad employee. I have problems getting out of bed and going into work because of that feeling. I’m tired of receiving looks that imply I’m stupid when I ask questions. I’m tired of treading water and only barely staying afloat. I’m tired of not feeling like I had a productive day.
The easiest way out of this would be to quit and just find another job right? Yet I feel like I’m chained to a weight that’s not letting me get anywhere. I try and I try to find something else and apply for something else and get an interview but nothing comes.
I’m finding myself wondering more and more if I should just apply for work at a McDonalds or something. I’d get paid more money, that’s for sure and I’d defiantly be able to get benefits.
I just want to do something with my life. I’m 24 now and despite a College Education I feel like I’ve done jack with my life.
If I actually had a list of things I want to do and see before I die, I would certainly only have one thing checked off on that list.
I was in the middle of alpha sorting a pile of paper that need to be filed away and my mind shot out “You are such a sham.”
I’ve been feeling like that a lot lately. I go to work almost every day and feel like I’m a bad employee. I have problems getting out of bed and going into work because of that feeling. I’m tired of receiving looks that imply I’m stupid when I ask questions. I’m tired of treading water and only barely staying afloat. I’m tired of not feeling like I had a productive day.
The easiest way out of this would be to quit and just find another job right? Yet I feel like I’m chained to a weight that’s not letting me get anywhere. I try and I try to find something else and apply for something else and get an interview but nothing comes.
I’m finding myself wondering more and more if I should just apply for work at a McDonalds or something. I’d get paid more money, that’s for sure and I’d defiantly be able to get benefits.
I just want to do something with my life. I’m 24 now and despite a College Education I feel like I’ve done jack with my life.
If I actually had a list of things I want to do and see before I die, I would certainly only have one thing checked off on that list.