one day you're off to school with yer gameboy, but tomorrow you will be the way
mom got me a photo album I've had my eye on that has this palm tree on the cover and holds 300 pictures. I haven't filled 300 yet, but I'm close, and I'm planning to bring an extra smaller album or two for the pics I take down there.
it's always kinda weird, when I look through all those photo albums I have. so, so many years of my life have been so beautifully captured by film, but those pictures can't do enough to relive the memories. I'm being kinda obsessive about the pics I'm bringing. lots of shots of views from the house, different shots featuring various rooms of the house, pics of the family boat, different areas of seattle, the various stages of decoration in my room. I figure I'm sentimental enough to where I'll miss everything at some point, right down to the stickers on kate's mazda and the look of maria's living room and the throw hanging over the sofa and even that stack of disney tapes by the tv.
it makes me wonder what kind of pictures I'll have to add over the course of the year. what new faces I'll stick in the pages and put in frames, what new places I'll look back on and remember fondly of the events that took place there. it's exciting, and nerve-wracking, and gives me butterflies of all kinds.
I found the pictures I took of lmu at last year's orientation. looking back on them made me feel excited and proud, and I wondered if I actually miss it. of course, I love lmu like it's my birthland, but will I have days when I just want to escape like I've had in seattle? when I come home, will I miss it? I have a feeling that I'll feel torn between seattle in los angeles for the rest of my life, feeling emotionally bound to each city, but also having my different things tying me to each. as in, in seattle, I have my family and the town I was born and raised in, but I also know what I want to do with my life isn't to be found here (not yet, anyway). and in los angeles, I have my school and my career, but it's not my city, not like seattle is.
I think I just worry too much.
this is going to kick ass. and when I make it big as the world's most successful animator and get a few films under my belt, I'll buy houses in both cities. maybe even a summer house/apartment on alki.
it's always kinda weird, when I look through all those photo albums I have. so, so many years of my life have been so beautifully captured by film, but those pictures can't do enough to relive the memories. I'm being kinda obsessive about the pics I'm bringing. lots of shots of views from the house, different shots featuring various rooms of the house, pics of the family boat, different areas of seattle, the various stages of decoration in my room. I figure I'm sentimental enough to where I'll miss everything at some point, right down to the stickers on kate's mazda and the look of maria's living room and the throw hanging over the sofa and even that stack of disney tapes by the tv.
it makes me wonder what kind of pictures I'll have to add over the course of the year. what new faces I'll stick in the pages and put in frames, what new places I'll look back on and remember fondly of the events that took place there. it's exciting, and nerve-wracking, and gives me butterflies of all kinds.
I found the pictures I took of lmu at last year's orientation. looking back on them made me feel excited and proud, and I wondered if I actually miss it. of course, I love lmu like it's my birthland, but will I have days when I just want to escape like I've had in seattle? when I come home, will I miss it? I have a feeling that I'll feel torn between seattle in los angeles for the rest of my life, feeling emotionally bound to each city, but also having my different things tying me to each. as in, in seattle, I have my family and the town I was born and raised in, but I also know what I want to do with my life isn't to be found here (not yet, anyway). and in los angeles, I have my school and my career, but it's not my city, not like seattle is.
I think I just worry too much.
this is going to kick ass. and when I make it big as the world's most successful animator and get a few films under my belt, I'll buy houses in both cities. maybe even a summer house/apartment on alki.