oh my god! a revelation!
holy crap...!
I've suddenly felt this odd feeling...
I've been bouncy for the last few hours, deciding to not go to school tomorrow and playing on lj and writing in my room and listening to the squirrel nut zippers... and as I've been on lj, this tingly feeling rushed over me. (no, not like *that*.)
I mean, I felt something I haven't felt in a long, long time, and now that I finally have, after so long of not feeling it, of being discouraged and beating myself up, of letting the worst get the best of me, of not really letting the words of others work on me the way they should, of trying to change myself for others and even for myself...it's finally happened! at least for the time being, it's here... I'm going to allow myself to accept this, this new realization of mine, and I'm going to hold on to it for as long as I can, without telling myself it is a lie or a figment of my imagination, without refusing to accept it, without denying it and dismissing it as something that doesn't happen to me... because finally, with the love I have from others, it has occurred to me that it is really true...
I love myself!!!!
I've suddenly felt this odd feeling...
I've been bouncy for the last few hours, deciding to not go to school tomorrow and playing on lj and writing in my room and listening to the squirrel nut zippers... and as I've been on lj, this tingly feeling rushed over me. (no, not like *that*.)
I mean, I felt something I haven't felt in a long, long time, and now that I finally have, after so long of not feeling it, of being discouraged and beating myself up, of letting the worst get the best of me, of not really letting the words of others work on me the way they should, of trying to change myself for others and even for myself...it's finally happened! at least for the time being, it's here... I'm going to allow myself to accept this, this new realization of mine, and I'm going to hold on to it for as long as I can, without telling myself it is a lie or a figment of my imagination, without refusing to accept it, without denying it and dismissing it as something that doesn't happen to me... because finally, with the love I have from others, it has occurred to me that it is really true...
I love myself!!!!