stupid wendesday, I stab at thee!!
I don't know what it is, but I feel really off today. maybe lonely... bored... tired of this routine. or all of the above.
I ditched maya today, because I just didn't feel like it, and I knew we wouldn't be doing anything. ashley wasn't around today, and on days when she's not around, I tend to feel kind of bummed. the day doesn't feel complete until I have a good laugh with ashley. :/
the fact that I haven't been able to use my cell phone has been sorta maddening. I fel so dumb for leaving my charger at austin's. oh well... the week's coming to a close eventually...
for a group project in communications class, I have to spend tonight sitting in on a clinic for marijuana abusers. I'm not looking forward to it...I know it'll make me feel uncomfortable. and I hate group projects. it'll probably be depressing, which isn't something I really need right now.
damnit, I hate never having food! I don't want to go to uhall to get lunch/dinner/dinnuch but I fear I must. for whatever reason, each night for the past week or so I've had the compulsion to eat a bowl of cereal late at night. I think the milk helps me sleep better or something.
I miss austin. I want to be with him right now, none of this waiting for friday evening stuff... sigh.
I made my schedule for next semester yesterday. it's gonna be a good one, except that the 2 animation classes are supposed to be real killers.
I'm real bored with a lot of life right now. I crave excitement. I want something spontaneous and wonderful, which sounds selfish after getting a car for my birthday, but I just wish I didn't have this routine of school-weekend with austin-school-weekend with austin-etc. school bores me and stresses me out at the same time.
because I'm so bored, I'll probably update more later...apologies in advance for it being dull and drool-inducing. but humor me.
(also, my dad flew out today to go on a business trip, and it's real serious... as in, the fate of his business is on the line. if you're the praying type, please keep him in your thoughts. my family's kind of under a lot of stress right now because of it. thanks...)
I ditched maya today, because I just didn't feel like it, and I knew we wouldn't be doing anything. ashley wasn't around today, and on days when she's not around, I tend to feel kind of bummed. the day doesn't feel complete until I have a good laugh with ashley. :/
the fact that I haven't been able to use my cell phone has been sorta maddening. I fel so dumb for leaving my charger at austin's. oh well... the week's coming to a close eventually...
for a group project in communications class, I have to spend tonight sitting in on a clinic for marijuana abusers. I'm not looking forward to it...I know it'll make me feel uncomfortable. and I hate group projects. it'll probably be depressing, which isn't something I really need right now.
damnit, I hate never having food! I don't want to go to uhall to get lunch/dinner/dinnuch but I fear I must. for whatever reason, each night for the past week or so I've had the compulsion to eat a bowl of cereal late at night. I think the milk helps me sleep better or something.
I miss austin. I want to be with him right now, none of this waiting for friday evening stuff... sigh.
I made my schedule for next semester yesterday. it's gonna be a good one, except that the 2 animation classes are supposed to be real killers.
I'm real bored with a lot of life right now. I crave excitement. I want something spontaneous and wonderful, which sounds selfish after getting a car for my birthday, but I just wish I didn't have this routine of school-weekend with austin-school-weekend with austin-etc. school bores me and stresses me out at the same time.
because I'm so bored, I'll probably update more later...apologies in advance for it being dull and drool-inducing. but humor me.
(also, my dad flew out today to go on a business trip, and it's real serious... as in, the fate of his business is on the line. if you're the praying type, please keep him in your thoughts. my family's kind of under a lot of stress right now because of it. thanks...)