even the smell of your laundry overpowers me
so....okay. last night I was extremely angry, but I don't wanna get into the reasoning why. at any rate, I needed to vent-- hence last night's frosty entries. and the end of that chapter.
today experimental animation was real weird.we constructed wire armatures (bendable puppets) out of wire. in the process, I chipped one of my nails (which are acrylic, for those of you not in the know), and decided it was time to lose the damn things anyway. so, I've spent all of today chewing them off, one by one... completely painful. ohmylordouch.
anyway, halfway through the class, this korean guy in a suit knocks on the door and pokes his head in. he had a handheld video camera, and a whole party with him carrying cameras as well. they proceeded to stick their hands through the door and record our class staring up in complete bewilderment. they had no explanation as to why they were there-- they just said they were from korea. we were all, ".....ohhh.....kay...." it was really rude seeming. I mean, why? I imagine they were guests of the school, but honestly.... what??!???
so. then I start work study again a few hours later. when I get there, I have two gifts waiting for me, as previously noted in my (second to) last entry.
well, so, the big mystery gift I got from arlene's husband? (it was his script I labored over all semester)... okay. it's in this huuuuge box. and it has a really, really nice thank you letter with it. really, the letter would have been reward enough. I really appreciated it.
then I open the box. and there is a 3-feet tall wooden sculpture of half a woman inside of it.
like, picture this: a circle base, about 1 1/2 feet of black wood as a pole, and then the wooden bust of a woman with no face. it stands alone, but I don't know why. I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT ITS PURPOSE IS. it appears to be african, but I can't be sure. apparently, it's from pier 1 imports, if that means anything. but I am completely mystified by it, and when I opened it, all I could think was, "why is my life so hilarious and twisted? why is there no one here to see this and appreciate the fucked uppedness of this experience?" all I could do was laugh in kind of an awe-stricken fashion.
also, last night, in drawing class, we had another live model. it was a pregnant woman. she wasn't thin, she had quite a bit of meat on her, and a young, plump, freckled face, and I thought she was beautiful. looking at her as I drew, I didn't feel the kind of raging jealousy that I normally feel from pregnant women. while I still can hardly wait to be pregnant myself, while it's an image I dream of obtaining for my own one day, I looked at this woman and I just felt peace. here she was, a modeling madonna, posing her changing body for us to teach us about things like the curvature of the spinal column. something about her ability to do this in a state that most women feel ugly during gave me an immeasurable amount of respect for her. it almost made me feel spiritual, or tranquil. I wanted to talk to her after class and thank her for her work, but that would have looked weird, and I didn't have the courage anyway. but that woman, and the classtime had with her will stick in my memory probably forever, and I don't really know why. that was pretty weird, but it was probably the most peaceful moment I've felt all week, if not all month.
anyway. got deep there for a sec.
so, on with the day. austin came out to see me as a special treat tonight! we spent some time taking advantage of my empty room (y'know) and then we went to the howard hughes promenade. we ate dinner at islands and had yummy burgers and got really full, then went to borders, where I bought a kare kano manga and a really interesting lesbian manga called "between the sheets" (no, it's not hentai. and mary, I'll let you borrow it, because it's way better than "fake.")
at the bookstore, we also read little books about our signs (virgo and pisces). we went to the relationships sections to see how compatable we were and some of what the books said was so close to how we really are it was scary.
he was ubertired. I mean, he's always tired. but still, he left....which was too bad.... because I had the room to myself for 45 minutes more after he'd left. ah well, we've got big weekend plans. biiiiig weekend plans. meeheehee.
so yeah. it's a weird time in my life right now.
oh, I almost forgot-- okay, so I bought chocolate milk from the lair today because the carton of nesquik left in the fridge that I'd been saving expired a few days ago. so I buy two cartons of this crappy milk from the lair, right? right. okay. stay with me here. I pour some of it to take pills with a while ago, and sip it, and it is NASTY AS FOKK. so I check the expiration date, which was JANUARY 30TH!!!!!! BLLUUUHHHHHHHHAAAUAYUUUGGHHHHHH!!!!! and to make matters worse, it happened to calvin too! I warned him just in time-- he and his roomy had just bought it tonight. so I saved his life too. but we are totally complaining about it. fucking lasyass lair people. need they be reminded how much we pay for this school?!
woah, okay kristen. you get vicious when your chocky milk cycle's been tampered with.
I'm glad I've found some peace amidst all the turbulence this week. I really need it.
today experimental animation was real weird.we constructed wire armatures (bendable puppets) out of wire. in the process, I chipped one of my nails (which are acrylic, for those of you not in the know), and decided it was time to lose the damn things anyway. so, I've spent all of today chewing them off, one by one... completely painful. ohmylordouch.
anyway, halfway through the class, this korean guy in a suit knocks on the door and pokes his head in. he had a handheld video camera, and a whole party with him carrying cameras as well. they proceeded to stick their hands through the door and record our class staring up in complete bewilderment. they had no explanation as to why they were there-- they just said they were from korea. we were all, ".....ohhh.....kay...." it was really rude seeming. I mean, why? I imagine they were guests of the school, but honestly.... what??!???
so. then I start work study again a few hours later. when I get there, I have two gifts waiting for me, as previously noted in my (second to) last entry.
well, so, the big mystery gift I got from arlene's husband? (it was his script I labored over all semester)... okay. it's in this huuuuge box. and it has a really, really nice thank you letter with it. really, the letter would have been reward enough. I really appreciated it.
then I open the box. and there is a 3-feet tall wooden sculpture of half a woman inside of it.
like, picture this: a circle base, about 1 1/2 feet of black wood as a pole, and then the wooden bust of a woman with no face. it stands alone, but I don't know why. I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT ITS PURPOSE IS. it appears to be african, but I can't be sure. apparently, it's from pier 1 imports, if that means anything. but I am completely mystified by it, and when I opened it, all I could think was, "why is my life so hilarious and twisted? why is there no one here to see this and appreciate the fucked uppedness of this experience?" all I could do was laugh in kind of an awe-stricken fashion.
also, last night, in drawing class, we had another live model. it was a pregnant woman. she wasn't thin, she had quite a bit of meat on her, and a young, plump, freckled face, and I thought she was beautiful. looking at her as I drew, I didn't feel the kind of raging jealousy that I normally feel from pregnant women. while I still can hardly wait to be pregnant myself, while it's an image I dream of obtaining for my own one day, I looked at this woman and I just felt peace. here she was, a modeling madonna, posing her changing body for us to teach us about things like the curvature of the spinal column. something about her ability to do this in a state that most women feel ugly during gave me an immeasurable amount of respect for her. it almost made me feel spiritual, or tranquil. I wanted to talk to her after class and thank her for her work, but that would have looked weird, and I didn't have the courage anyway. but that woman, and the classtime had with her will stick in my memory probably forever, and I don't really know why. that was pretty weird, but it was probably the most peaceful moment I've felt all week, if not all month.
anyway. got deep there for a sec.
so, on with the day. austin came out to see me as a special treat tonight! we spent some time taking advantage of my empty room (y'know) and then we went to the howard hughes promenade. we ate dinner at islands and had yummy burgers and got really full, then went to borders, where I bought a kare kano manga and a really interesting lesbian manga called "between the sheets" (no, it's not hentai. and mary, I'll let you borrow it, because it's way better than "fake.")
at the bookstore, we also read little books about our signs (virgo and pisces). we went to the relationships sections to see how compatable we were and some of what the books said was so close to how we really are it was scary.
he was ubertired. I mean, he's always tired. but still, he left....which was too bad.... because I had the room to myself for 45 minutes more after he'd left. ah well, we've got big weekend plans. biiiiig weekend plans. meeheehee.
so yeah. it's a weird time in my life right now.
oh, I almost forgot-- okay, so I bought chocolate milk from the lair today because the carton of nesquik left in the fridge that I'd been saving expired a few days ago. so I buy two cartons of this crappy milk from the lair, right? right. okay. stay with me here. I pour some of it to take pills with a while ago, and sip it, and it is NASTY AS FOKK. so I check the expiration date, which was JANUARY 30TH!!!!!! BLLUUUHHHHHHHHAAAUAYUUUGGHHHHHH!!!!! and to make matters worse, it happened to calvin too! I warned him just in time-- he and his roomy had just bought it tonight. so I saved his life too. but we are totally complaining about it. fucking lasyass lair people. need they be reminded how much we pay for this school?!
woah, okay kristen. you get vicious when your chocky milk cycle's been tampered with.
I'm glad I've found some peace amidst all the turbulence this week. I really need it.