The Few, The Proud, The Broken 16/?
The Few, The Proud The Broken 16
Author: krebsbach
Pairing: Jensen/Jared
Summary: Jensen is a Marine suffering PTSD who just wants to be left alone. Jared is the Psychologist trying to help him.
Beta’d by: orvida
Warning: NC-17, POW Torture, rape
Notes: Watched a local news story about returning vets that got me thinking about PTSD.
Disclaimer: as usual my twisted brain has the boys doing
naughty things to each other.
The knowledge that Jensen wasn’t gay hit Jared like a gut punch. His mind raced with doubts. Did he pressure Jensen into a relationship? Christ was last two days just Jensen's way of trying to pay back Jared’s help with his PTSD? Jared dropped Jensen’s hand taking three steps back. Shoving his hands into his jean pockets.
Jensen turned looking at Jared over his shoulder. With a growl of frustration Jensen hooked his fingers through Jared’s belt loops pulling him back to stand next to him. "I’ve always been bi-sexual asshole. You know that. Stacie Amherst and her twin brother Dale senior prom after party. Ring any bells."
"Shit! I forgot about that night. Probably since Steve and I got into a huge fight. You were the only guy in school who could truthfully say they had a threesome with twins." Christian through back his head laughing. Jensen blushed just a little.
Jared was pretty sure his jaw had drop. His mind couldn’t really process the information that Jensen had a threesome. Jensen looked over at him with a sexy smirk on his pretty lips.
Reaching over he pushed Jared’s jaw shout. "Close your mouth you look like a guppy."
Jensen had wanted to just talk about Jared’s issues but Steve and Christian wanted to know why he broke contact with them for years. Telling them he was fucked up didn’t cover it. They were family and they wanted details Jensen wasn’t sure he was ready to hand out. He wasn’t the same brother they knew before. That man had died in a dirty hut in desert.
"Jenny nothing you could say would make us feel any different about you. Family doesn’t throw you away just because you’re broken." Jensen tensed just a little when Christian used his beloved nick name he always pretended to hate.
"My dad did." Jensen said dropping his head.
"What?" Steve asked.
Jared wrapped his arm around Jensen shoulder’s for support. "When I was held captive I was tortured. Part of the torture was daily rapes." Jensen’s voice was mono tone and flat his eye cast toward the floor.
"Jesus Christ Jen." Steve stepped toward Jensen his crystal blue eyes filling with tears.
"Alan came to see me once when I was at Walter Reed. He told me not to bring my shame home to my mom and Mack. If I let myself be raped I wasn’t a man anyway." Jensen sank back deeper into Jared who pressed himself at Jensen’s back hugging him tightly.
"Fuck!" Christian snarled slamming his fist into the wall. Rage making his cerulean blue eyes go dark like a stormy sky. Alan Ackles had always been an asshole. "I am going to kill him."
"Christian!" Steve tried to grab his lover but Christian shrugged his hand off.
Stepping out of Jared’s comforting embrace Jensen went to Christian ignoring his growl he wrapped his arms around his best friend. "You’re not going to kill Alan. My issues have really nothing to do with my asshole father." Jensen grunted as Christian wrapped his arms around him tightly. He could feel the other man’s hot tears spilling onto his neck. Steve stepped close wrapping his arms around both of them.
"Hey Robby where are the USB’s?" Adam sat down at his desk.
"In the pocket of the computer bag egg head where else." Robby said picking up the bag dumping it upside down on the bed. Grabbing one Robby tossed the UBS to Adam. "Check it first. We might have to erase some of them."
"Let’s check them all first." Adam plugged the first UBS into the computer port.
A soft knock on Adam’s bedroom before his mom popped her head in. "You boys want Chinese or pizza?" Adam’s mom was nurse in the burn unit at County General Hospital. Robby wasn’t sure if he ever seen her in anything but scrubs.
"Egg rolls and chicken wings." Both boys answered.
Mary opened the medicine cabinet in her brother’s bathroom. There was six can’s of shaving cream, one disposable razor, multiple prescription bottles for drugs with names she couldn’t pronounce. In the drawer under the sink was cleaning products and leather bound journal.
"Why would Milo keep his journal in the bathroom? You’re supposed to read a book while you take a crap not write a book." Mary mumbled.
Grabbing the book Mary went into the kitchen to make a pot of coffee. She felt just a tinge of guilt about reading her little brothers private thoughts. But Milo was gone. He killed himself and he didn’t even leave a note saying why. Mary needed to know why. She needed a reason to pin Milo’s death on. No matter how screwed up he was Milo was still her baby brother.
April 9, 2010
I met Jared at the park today. We fed the ducks of all things. He said fresh spring air was very therapeutic. Jared asked if the new meds he prescribed were helping me sleep better. Jared is such a generous kind man. He really cares about me. I can see in his hazel eyes when we talk.
April 22, 2010
Jared told me about his brother today. That’s the moment I knew he felt it just like I did. We weren’t just doctor and patient. We are soul mates.
May 10, 2010
Jared was upset. I bought him a gift and he was upset. I told him that I loved him and he told me I was only feeling what I thought was love because he was helping through my illness. What a crock he is just afraid of what his high mighty doctor friends will say.
May 11, 2010
I followed Jared today. He met some older bald guy at the University. They had coffee and then Jared went home with him. I saw them kissing through the window. The rage I felt. It was red hot and all consuming. I smashed the window of the guys car.
June 23, 2010
Jared had Doctor Rosenbaum sit in our session today like he was afraid of me. Afraid of me. I love him. I’ll show him he can’t treat me this way.
July 17, 2010
All my appointment with Jared have been cancelled. I am to make future appointment with the outreach team from Mental Hospital. Jared can’t do this to me. I won’t let him.
July 25, 2010
I met someone today who said he could help me keep Jared. Tobias said he can help me make sure Jared sees the truth. That we belong together.
The July 25 2010 entry was the last one. Mary remembered that just two weeks later Milo had broken into Dr. Padalecki’s home writing love words on his wall in Milo’s own blood. She remembered how devastated the doctor had been that he hadn’t been able to help Milo and had possibly made Milo worse. What Mary didn’t know was who Tobias was?
Tobias Jane pushed the mop bucket back toward the janitor’s closest. He was pissed he hadn’t found the UBS at Milo’s apartment. He was pissed at himself that he didn’t take it with him before Milo offed himself. He had called the police station asking about a computer bag. They said they gave everything back to Milo’s sister. It was time Tobias paid his respects to Milo’s family.TBC>>>>