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Well this has been a crazzy weekend. Me and Shanna have been fighting (what else is new). But I have come to realization that the way we have our relationship setup is not healthy at all. We should be having fun and like being with each other. Lately, it has really felt like work, too much work. She took on a second job that was taking up all of her time, which was very straining on the relationship. I told her I was feeling like we were just friends, and that we were drifting. Well last night she told me that she quit her second job at the bar. The relationship is more important to her than the job. That gives me some security. But we both decided that we need to start being casual with each other. Not seeing other people, but just taking the pressure off the relationship. I can't handle all of this stress and emotional drama. I am tired of it. I know that I like drama, but this is too much drama, even for me. I miss my friends and having fun. Like my mom pam said, you are too young for this shit, you need to take the pressure off the relationship and start having fun, this is when you should be having the time of your life. So I have decided that I am going to start making more friends and going out more and doing more things.
So I'm getting ready to move back home in like two weeks. I am a bit sad about it. I really don't want to leave my friends and orlando has really become my new home. Its very sad for me to move back there, but at least I will save lots of money living at home.
I start Joe Blasco next monday. Me and Aliana went driving to see where the school is and how to get there to avoid traffic in the morning. I am so excited about it. I just can't wait until I start my career. When I will be able to go to CA and do jobs for major motion pictures. I'm just ready for the major change in my career. I can't stand working from 8-5 Monday thru Friday. It drives me crazzy. Granted my hours as a makeup artist will been very crazzy and odd hours, but at least it will be more exciting than 8-5.
I am sad but very excited about all of the change in my life.
So I'm getting ready to move back home in like two weeks. I am a bit sad about it. I really don't want to leave my friends and orlando has really become my new home. Its very sad for me to move back there, but at least I will save lots of money living at home.
I start Joe Blasco next monday. Me and Aliana went driving to see where the school is and how to get there to avoid traffic in the morning. I am so excited about it. I just can't wait until I start my career. When I will be able to go to CA and do jobs for major motion pictures. I'm just ready for the major change in my career. I can't stand working from 8-5 Monday thru Friday. It drives me crazzy. Granted my hours as a makeup artist will been very crazzy and odd hours, but at least it will be more exciting than 8-5.
I am sad but very excited about all of the change in my life.