somewhere between shocked and completely saw that coming
how is it possible my heart can have any pieces left to break?
i guess i shouldnt be surprised, right? i can read the clues. i shouldnt be reading the clues but i can haha. thing is im oddly at ease. i dont know if its the fact i had a great weekend, i have gone completely numb and have no strength to even worry about it right now, or i am psychic and i just know down the road its going to happen. i cant explain how or why i know this i just know it and i knew this "in between" crap would happen too. the only way it will happen though is if i stop being a dumb ass about the situation also. i have got to accept the fate i know and stop trying to rush it and change it which only delays it or deviates it. i messed up, but i wont dare just blame myself, but i can admit i messed up and i crossed lines i shouldnt had, i acted like a person i dont even recognize and i now know who i am. who i always have been but got caught up in the pressures of society and the confusion of pleasing the world. i lost myself and i am pretty sure i found Bre again. shes a little shaken up, and shes a little depressed here and there. she has good reason and she doesnt let it impede. she is living, because we only get one chance. she is forgiving and forgetting, she is learning, maturing, exploring. most of all she is never going to be a lunatic again. i dont know where it went wrong but i do know i have tried and will continue to try to fix it to near perfection. this is all so incredibly important to me.
You might think I'm losing my mind,
But I will shy away from the specifics...
'cause I don't want you to know where I am
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.
This is no place to try and live my life.
Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it.
See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. Well I never should have said
That it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.
I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.
i have more faith in you than you have in yourself. let me know when you wake up and realize everything ive known since day one.
i guess i shouldnt be surprised, right? i can read the clues. i shouldnt be reading the clues but i can haha. thing is im oddly at ease. i dont know if its the fact i had a great weekend, i have gone completely numb and have no strength to even worry about it right now, or i am psychic and i just know down the road its going to happen. i cant explain how or why i know this i just know it and i knew this "in between" crap would happen too. the only way it will happen though is if i stop being a dumb ass about the situation also. i have got to accept the fate i know and stop trying to rush it and change it which only delays it or deviates it. i messed up, but i wont dare just blame myself, but i can admit i messed up and i crossed lines i shouldnt had, i acted like a person i dont even recognize and i now know who i am. who i always have been but got caught up in the pressures of society and the confusion of pleasing the world. i lost myself and i am pretty sure i found Bre again. shes a little shaken up, and shes a little depressed here and there. she has good reason and she doesnt let it impede. she is living, because we only get one chance. she is forgiving and forgetting, she is learning, maturing, exploring. most of all she is never going to be a lunatic again. i dont know where it went wrong but i do know i have tried and will continue to try to fix it to near perfection. this is all so incredibly important to me.
You might think I'm losing my mind,
But I will shy away from the specifics...
'cause I don't want you to know where I am
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.
This is no place to try and live my life.
Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it.
See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. Well I never should have said
That it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.
I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.
i have more faith in you than you have in yourself. let me know when you wake up and realize everything ive known since day one.