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[krazysauce]

so I hit rock-bottom this past week. and it was rough, but, of course, there's was no way to go but up. So I'm BACK mother-fuckers. i cannot allow myself to be depressed any longer. I've made mistakes, I've lost the only person in my life I every really cared about, but it's time to move on. I will no longer be faking a good mood either, I WILL be in a good mood. I came to the realization that sometimes, no matter how hard you cling to something it won't come back until you let it go, so if she wants to try to pick our friendship up again, it is up to her, otherwise I'm done trying. I have found something close to resembling the faith that I realized that I had lost and i'm not letting go. there is hope for a better tomorrow and there is a light at the end of the tunnel. let's hope this mood sticks with me for a little while and i don't wake up tomorrow to realize that the light was just a freight train headed my way.

we will see how long this lasts, cause i have fooled myself before. hopefully the holes are healed and i'm not just fooling myself again. and most importantly I won't wall off my heart like i did the last time it broke, but i don't think that will happen, I don't think that you, my friends, will allow it to happen, so peace out people, have great lives, if you have problems, i feel for you and you are more than welcome to come talk to me about them again, shortly, i will be able to listen again. and for the second song reference, I got 99 problems, but a bitch is no longer one

( and that is not a derogatory reference, I still love her and always will, she taught me a lot, so don't freak people)