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god i hate my comp, i'll try writing this for the third time:
college is not to have fun, college is not to party, college is not to meet lifelong friends, college is not to learn how to be indpendent....for me college is to find out if i have anything left, if i can be more then someone who lives an empty husk of a life, a drag on society or someoen who commits suicide by the time he is 30 or so.......i want to learn how to actually live a life worth living, not one that is painful every day......and what of course always helps are the snide comments, the "sure mehran" "what do you expect us to think" "*rolls eyes*" "yea right" "you're worthless"'s......doesn't matter that they get under my skin and make me feel like my head is gonna burst.......its amazing how many ppl will miss mannerism changes, facial expressions, etc when someone just keeps a halfway straight face for a couple seconds after the instigating remark......for those who had faith in me throughout highschool and those who do now, thanks, it actually does mean something......for those who didn't/don't, don't misunderstand me, speak your mind completely......even if you don't say it, i'll know you want to, so it really doesn't matter........haha i mean you're in the majority, even most of my closest friends think the same way as you......haha even my roommate "knew" me before i got here beacause of my "wonderful" friends.......i'm already bleeeding, adding ur own little thrust doesnt' matter.....i'm used to the pain, i can take it.......anyways here is what inspired all this annoyingness:
Mehran01920: damn that means I have a bio exam coming up
???: Mehran, do you really care?
Mehran01920: yup
???: suuuure
I actually shed a couple tears after a long time.....haha yea i know more to make fun of :P
Stop crying your heart out
college is not to have fun, college is not to party, college is not to meet lifelong friends, college is not to learn how to be indpendent....for me college is to find out if i have anything left, if i can be more then someone who lives an empty husk of a life, a drag on society or someoen who commits suicide by the time he is 30 or so.......i want to learn how to actually live a life worth living, not one that is painful every day......and what of course always helps are the snide comments, the "sure mehran" "what do you expect us to think" "*rolls eyes*" "yea right" "you're worthless"'s......doesn't matter that they get under my skin and make me feel like my head is gonna burst.......its amazing how many ppl will miss mannerism changes, facial expressions, etc when someone just keeps a halfway straight face for a couple seconds after the instigating remark......for those who had faith in me throughout highschool and those who do now, thanks, it actually does mean something......for those who didn't/don't, don't misunderstand me, speak your mind completely......even if you don't say it, i'll know you want to, so it really doesn't matter........haha i mean you're in the majority, even most of my closest friends think the same way as you......haha even my roommate "knew" me before i got here beacause of my "wonderful" friends.......i'm already bleeeding, adding ur own little thrust doesnt' matter.....i'm used to the pain, i can take it.......anyways here is what inspired all this annoyingness:
Mehran01920: damn that means I have a bio exam coming up
???: Mehran, do you really care?
Mehran01920: yup
???: suuuure
I actually shed a couple tears after a long time.....haha yea i know more to make fun of :P
Stop crying your heart out