I feel sick it's the pit, in my stomach
I watched a beautiful mind,
"Imagine if you suddenly learned that the people, the places, the moments most important to you were not gone, not dead, but worse, had never been. What kind of hell would that be? "
I worry about going crazy.
I worry that I can't handle this environment much longer.
I shouldn't have to seriously worry about that.
I guess I never realized I've been through alot, because that's how I thought life was.
I told a friend about my day,
and he said "I know all about dysfuntional families."
I never thought of it that way.
He pushed me over the edge,
a twenty four year old man who has come into my house,
uninvited,
was discharged from the military because he is clinically insane.
He has a baby daughter that he never sees out of state,
and when I was twelve years old all until probably last year, I would cry to my parents...
"please don't leave me alone with him."
parents never listen.
parents never really listen.
at least mine don't.
It has gotten to the point where he thinks he's boss of the house,
and with him paying 200 dollars a month my mom doesn't want him to leave.
This is my cousin.
I think the world would be a better place without him.
but it is not up to me to make that decision,
but I'm done having him in my world,
because I need a better life than this.
I am not a scared little girl anymore.
"Imagine if you suddenly learned that the people, the places, the moments most important to you were not gone, not dead, but worse, had never been. What kind of hell would that be? "
I worry about going crazy.
I worry that I can't handle this environment much longer.
I shouldn't have to seriously worry about that.
I guess I never realized I've been through alot, because that's how I thought life was.
I told a friend about my day,
and he said "I know all about dysfuntional families."
I never thought of it that way.
He pushed me over the edge,
a twenty four year old man who has come into my house,
uninvited,
was discharged from the military because he is clinically insane.
He has a baby daughter that he never sees out of state,
and when I was twelve years old all until probably last year, I would cry to my parents...
"please don't leave me alone with him."
parents never listen.
parents never really listen.
at least mine don't.
It has gotten to the point where he thinks he's boss of the house,
and with him paying 200 dollars a month my mom doesn't want him to leave.
This is my cousin.
I think the world would be a better place without him.
but it is not up to me to make that decision,
but I'm done having him in my world,
because I need a better life than this.
I am not a scared little girl anymore.