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Okay. Today sucks. I never post on here, so evidently today sucks a LOT.
I feel like utter and complete poop. I've got the runs...my throat is killing cos there's a nice big open soar on it!!!...I have a constant sinus headache that won't go away. I've got a bit of nausea that comes and goes. AAAND, it's flippin cold! Like, I'm sitting here with a blanket around me and I'm still freezing. Oh, and did I mention that I keep sneezing? And since my head is full of snot, every time I sneeze a nice big glob comes out. Yum! Oh, and there's something in this room that smells really bad. And no, I already checked it aint me.
I'm also kinda messed up mentally...I'm in like three moods at once, and they all contradict each other on, as well as kinda egg the others on. I'm really feeling the hatred of men right now. It's not really b/c of Josh either. I mean, thinking of him certainly doens't help. But it's not really b/c of him. It's just kinda a general realisation that all the men I've ever met were boys, and they're completely immature. And apparantly that doesn't change a whole lot with age. Their dumbassness just kind of shifts and changes...but it doesn't go away. So yay!
But at the same time I'm also really feeling the 'I need a man'ness. So it sucks, cos I'm like, men suck and I'm never gonna find a guy who understands me...but you know what would be really nice?? If I magically did and had a man...I'd like that.
Then, on top of both of these moods, I'm also feeling incredibly lazy due to the ickiness in my body right now. And with this laziness has come a semi-reflective mood. So I'm kinda just thinkin bout stuff. And one of the subjects that keeps popping into my head w/out my permission is me. I keep thinking about my faults and such and how I could change them...I've done this before...been stuck in a mood like this and gone all self-reflective...and that in itself really doesn't usually bum me out too much. I mean, their my faults...I do know they're there, I just usually don't think about them. But, I mean, come on. Add these three moods together in your head and see if you can come up with a happy equation. I didn't :(
So I'm kind of going back and forth btw pissed of at the entire male populations...and being depressed. I'm also listening to the radio...never a good idea at a time like this. Ever song either makes me wanna cry or scream at the radio....which wouldn't seem to sane. ::shakes head:: I've also discovered that if you add these three moods together with feeling like shit...you get a very moody Katie. I was playing golf on neopets...something that's supposed to be very relaxing...and usually is for me. And I growled at the screen multiple time. Yep, growled. Not little cute ones either. Big manly demonic sounding ones. I got off of neopets shortly afterwards...my blood pressure.
So, In conclusion: I feel like shit. I'm thinking way too much shit. And I'm in a bitch of a mood w/no one to take it out on. Poor computer. ::sigh::
Aren't you glad you took the time to read this LOVELY post??
I feel like utter and complete poop. I've got the runs...my throat is killing cos there's a nice big open soar on it!!!...I have a constant sinus headache that won't go away. I've got a bit of nausea that comes and goes. AAAND, it's flippin cold! Like, I'm sitting here with a blanket around me and I'm still freezing. Oh, and did I mention that I keep sneezing? And since my head is full of snot, every time I sneeze a nice big glob comes out. Yum! Oh, and there's something in this room that smells really bad. And no, I already checked it aint me.
I'm also kinda messed up mentally...I'm in like three moods at once, and they all contradict each other on, as well as kinda egg the others on. I'm really feeling the hatred of men right now. It's not really b/c of Josh either. I mean, thinking of him certainly doens't help. But it's not really b/c of him. It's just kinda a general realisation that all the men I've ever met were boys, and they're completely immature. And apparantly that doesn't change a whole lot with age. Their dumbassness just kind of shifts and changes...but it doesn't go away. So yay!
But at the same time I'm also really feeling the 'I need a man'ness. So it sucks, cos I'm like, men suck and I'm never gonna find a guy who understands me...but you know what would be really nice?? If I magically did and had a man...I'd like that.
Then, on top of both of these moods, I'm also feeling incredibly lazy due to the ickiness in my body right now. And with this laziness has come a semi-reflective mood. So I'm kinda just thinkin bout stuff. And one of the subjects that keeps popping into my head w/out my permission is me. I keep thinking about my faults and such and how I could change them...I've done this before...been stuck in a mood like this and gone all self-reflective...and that in itself really doesn't usually bum me out too much. I mean, their my faults...I do know they're there, I just usually don't think about them. But, I mean, come on. Add these three moods together in your head and see if you can come up with a happy equation. I didn't :(
So I'm kind of going back and forth btw pissed of at the entire male populations...and being depressed. I'm also listening to the radio...never a good idea at a time like this. Ever song either makes me wanna cry or scream at the radio....which wouldn't seem to sane. ::shakes head:: I've also discovered that if you add these three moods together with feeling like shit...you get a very moody Katie. I was playing golf on neopets...something that's supposed to be very relaxing...and usually is for me. And I growled at the screen multiple time. Yep, growled. Not little cute ones either. Big manly demonic sounding ones. I got off of neopets shortly afterwards...my blood pressure.
So, In conclusion: I feel like shit. I'm thinking way too much shit. And I'm in a bitch of a mood w/no one to take it out on. Poor computer. ::sigh::
Aren't you glad you took the time to read this LOVELY post??