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[krazykat722]

dustin and i arent going to talk about the "wedding" anymore. it just makes me sad. he keeps reminding me that its still a ways away. i get all excited, and then bam. its like hes telling me...i dont even know. i know he isnt planning on proposing anytime soon, so it seems like a waste of time and energy to get excited about something that is at least 2 years away. besides, he'll remind he that he wants to wait until he has money. he wants to wait until hes sure he has a job to support us. he just...wants to wait. so talking about it almost depresses me, when he keeps telling me we have to wait. i mean, thats good that he wants to wait until he can be sure he can support us. but...sigh. i dunno. hes sad now, cuz he still wants to talk about it. but whats the point? when he says we have to wait, it makes it seem like its a lifetime away.

so i guess ill fill all you guys in on wedding details when theres actually a wedding.