Life is full of ups and downs
It just seems that when one part of my life is going great another part just goes downhill. I'm doing great in almost all of my classes (some are better than others).
I got to see my sister win best actress as Mrs. Potts in her high school's production of Beauty and the Beast.
I got to see Matt this weekend. Got to see him, his brother, and dad just do an amazing job in their church play. Then I ate dinner with his grandparents and family (always fun :) Turns out his mom knew my Uncle and had seen my mom around in high school. Oh the small world that is South Bend!
Then after this amazing weekend I get word tonight of my Grandma Speraw. Her Alzheimer's is pretty much in the worst stage it could probably go to. She's lost control of her bowels, she pouts in the bathtub because my aunt helped put the bed back together with my grandpa and apparently that's her job. Then tonight I hear that she's been calling people saying that she needs to go home. She's calling from her house, but she doesn't recognize it at all. She thinks my Grandpa, her husband for at least 50 years is some relative named Bob. (We don't know if she thinks it's her uncle or old brother in law), but it's my Grandpa Charles!! How can someone forget their own husband?? My family is placing her in an assisted living home while she's on the waiting list for this other home that has an Alzheimer's unit.
Why did she have to get this terrible disease?! Some people are saying that when times get hard I should pray and talk to God, but the only thing I have to say to him right now is "FUCK YOU! Why couldn't you give this to someone that doesn't have a loving family that has to watch one of the most loving, kindest woman they know slowly turn into a 4 year-old and eventually die?? Why can't she just have a stroke and die quickly?? Why do you make her suffer so long?" I just don't understand why it has to happen like this. And I know cussing out God isn't going to change anything, but I just don't see how praying and being nice to him is going to help either! If I did pray it would just for her to die quietly in her sleep tonight. I know it sounds bad, but I just wish she would die. I can't stand to see my dad so upset and I can't stand hearing about how my own grandma, the one I have so many sweet memories of, doesn't even recognize her own house and husband.
I'm gonna go cry some more, but I just wanted to let you guys know what's goin on in my life. I hope none of you have to experience this disease with any of your family members or friends!!
I love you all!
Andrea
I got to see my sister win best actress as Mrs. Potts in her high school's production of Beauty and the Beast.
I got to see Matt this weekend. Got to see him, his brother, and dad just do an amazing job in their church play. Then I ate dinner with his grandparents and family (always fun :) Turns out his mom knew my Uncle and had seen my mom around in high school. Oh the small world that is South Bend!
Then after this amazing weekend I get word tonight of my Grandma Speraw. Her Alzheimer's is pretty much in the worst stage it could probably go to. She's lost control of her bowels, she pouts in the bathtub because my aunt helped put the bed back together with my grandpa and apparently that's her job. Then tonight I hear that she's been calling people saying that she needs to go home. She's calling from her house, but she doesn't recognize it at all. She thinks my Grandpa, her husband for at least 50 years is some relative named Bob. (We don't know if she thinks it's her uncle or old brother in law), but it's my Grandpa Charles!! How can someone forget their own husband?? My family is placing her in an assisted living home while she's on the waiting list for this other home that has an Alzheimer's unit.
Why did she have to get this terrible disease?! Some people are saying that when times get hard I should pray and talk to God, but the only thing I have to say to him right now is "FUCK YOU! Why couldn't you give this to someone that doesn't have a loving family that has to watch one of the most loving, kindest woman they know slowly turn into a 4 year-old and eventually die?? Why can't she just have a stroke and die quickly?? Why do you make her suffer so long?" I just don't understand why it has to happen like this. And I know cussing out God isn't going to change anything, but I just don't see how praying and being nice to him is going to help either! If I did pray it would just for her to die quietly in her sleep tonight. I know it sounds bad, but I just wish she would die. I can't stand to see my dad so upset and I can't stand hearing about how my own grandma, the one I have so many sweet memories of, doesn't even recognize her own house and husband.
I'm gonna go cry some more, but I just wanted to let you guys know what's goin on in my life. I hope none of you have to experience this disease with any of your family members or friends!!
I love you all!
Andrea