Is there a silver lining?
Is it bad that I'm already accepting defeat? I currently have a D+ in my genetics class and every time I think about that class I sink further and further into a state of depression. I have to pass this class with a C, his tests are impossible. If this class was just quizzes and labs I'd have a B+, but no thanks to his ridiculous tests I have 2 letter grades below that! I have a test tomorrow morning and the final. I have one lab report and a little extra credit assignment. Other than that the class is finished and I'm fucked. I plan on studying my ass off for this final, but I don't know how much good it will do.
It sucks. I bust my ass for this class. I give it everything I've got and yet I still get this grade screwing up my GPA. Thanks to this class I doubt I'll keep my scholarship which is gonna hurt the wallet as well as my self-esteem. This class makes me feel like a piece of shit. I feel incredibly stupid when I get terrible grades on the tests while some other students can somehow get Bs. What am I doing wrong? What's happening to me? I know I'm a good student. I got my first C last semester and I made up my mind it would never happen again, but apparently I lied to myself.
I know that taking this class over again wouldn't be the end of the world. I mean yeah it would suck, but at least I would know what to expect and know what I should focus my studying on, but then the little worrier in me starts to freak out: What if I don't pass it the second time around? What if it keeps me from graduating? What will my family think??
I mean if you wanna know how serious this is I actually was laying in my bed after I found out the results of this last test and was like "what would happen to me if I just dropped out?" I know I would never be able to do that. I need to get a Biology degree so I can work with animals at a zoo, but it's just so easy for me to admit defeat when things get hard. I'm trying to stand strong and rise to the challenge, but in this matter I really do think I'm screwed. I need your support, prayers, words of encouragement, hugs...anything! It's gonna be a rough time for me when grades come out!
It sucks. I bust my ass for this class. I give it everything I've got and yet I still get this grade screwing up my GPA. Thanks to this class I doubt I'll keep my scholarship which is gonna hurt the wallet as well as my self-esteem. This class makes me feel like a piece of shit. I feel incredibly stupid when I get terrible grades on the tests while some other students can somehow get Bs. What am I doing wrong? What's happening to me? I know I'm a good student. I got my first C last semester and I made up my mind it would never happen again, but apparently I lied to myself.
I know that taking this class over again wouldn't be the end of the world. I mean yeah it would suck, but at least I would know what to expect and know what I should focus my studying on, but then the little worrier in me starts to freak out: What if I don't pass it the second time around? What if it keeps me from graduating? What will my family think??
I mean if you wanna know how serious this is I actually was laying in my bed after I found out the results of this last test and was like "what would happen to me if I just dropped out?" I know I would never be able to do that. I need to get a Biology degree so I can work with animals at a zoo, but it's just so easy for me to admit defeat when things get hard. I'm trying to stand strong and rise to the challenge, but in this matter I really do think I'm screwed. I need your support, prayers, words of encouragement, hugs...anything! It's gonna be a rough time for me when grades come out!