Okie dokie
I had an awesome 21st, even tho I had to work but I ended up going out to eat and up to the bar where my cousin was bartending and I ended up staying with Alan.
I moved out of the Apt. w/ Alan about 2 weeks ago and moved back in with my dad. Alan and I arent together but we were if that makes sense. ALan has changed a lot since we moved into the apt. and I couldnt handle it, so I left. But now all I do is lay around and think about him. I was at his place all day yesterday and he was telling me how he was laying in the room crying cause i left and trying to remember were I had everything, he says he misses me which makes me feel happy. I dont want to be with him but I feel good when Im around him. Its all krazy.
Work isnt so bad I guess its better than not working at all. Im still looking for another job I will just keep this one to hold me by.
Their is sooooo many people I know right now od'in on herion. I dont like it at all...My friend Breno dies from it, Shawn got luck Grant was there to keep him alive till the peramedics came, Carrie (dads friend) was in severe condition, and my best friend Brians sister fell out the other night when her 4 fuckin kids were home. Im tired of trying to help ppl who doesnt want help but I dont want to give up on them either because they are all truely good people. Other people I know that do it, upset me because the wont realize what its doing to all our friends.
Sometimes I just want to runaway.
I moved out of the Apt. w/ Alan about 2 weeks ago and moved back in with my dad. Alan and I arent together but we were if that makes sense. ALan has changed a lot since we moved into the apt. and I couldnt handle it, so I left. But now all I do is lay around and think about him. I was at his place all day yesterday and he was telling me how he was laying in the room crying cause i left and trying to remember were I had everything, he says he misses me which makes me feel happy. I dont want to be with him but I feel good when Im around him. Its all krazy.
Work isnt so bad I guess its better than not working at all. Im still looking for another job I will just keep this one to hold me by.
Their is sooooo many people I know right now od'in on herion. I dont like it at all...My friend Breno dies from it, Shawn got luck Grant was there to keep him alive till the peramedics came, Carrie (dads friend) was in severe condition, and my best friend Brians sister fell out the other night when her 4 fuckin kids were home. Im tired of trying to help ppl who doesnt want help but I dont want to give up on them either because they are all truely good people. Other people I know that do it, upset me because the wont realize what its doing to all our friends.
Sometimes I just want to runaway.