proper update
So it's Easter Break. Originally, I was supposed to be in London for this week but well, things have changed a bit and here I am in good 'ol Dayton, Ohio. *sigh* I've never actually stayed on campus for a break before, it's a lil weird cuz more people went home than I thought would. It's ok tho, because ideally I need to get a fuckton, yes a FUCKton of work done over this break. Starting with my History Thesis which has to be 20pages and I have well um. ZERO. I also have a research paper (1opager) for my Palestinian-Israeli class. I'm stuck @ work for 8hrs today so ideally that is what I'm going to be working on.
...especially since guess what, the internet is down which is quite possibly the WORST THING POSSiBLE. ((at least i still have my ipod))
I'm feeling a lot better today, I've had a nasty case of the flu most of the week which really sucked. I really think a lot of it had to do with my new birth control which I have stopped taking. Each time I took it the past week I became violently ill and even threw up a couple times (tmi sorry) but yea fuck that NOT WORTH IT @ ALL. I miss the patch, I hope something gets sorted with that so I can start using that again and screw all these oral contraceptive methods.
So we have about a month left @ uD. crazy right? Off and on for the past 4years I have wanted nothing more than to get the fuck out of this place and away from Ohio for most likely the rest of my life. But now that it comes down to it, why WHY do I have to find someone that makes me want to stay?
worst
timing
ever!
She makes uD liveable...enjoyable even. I've really grown attached to seeing her daily and our 3-4 phone conversations every nite O:) I've also grown attached to our sleepovers n cuddles and eep! YES even her taste in music (only she'll get that one :p)) It's really bad tho, cuz she makes me question so much and I kno, I kno without having to think about it I could have something serious with her and longterm, but because of this fucking horrific timing nothing will ever come of it. But perhaps one day when she's a famous artist living in NYC and if London doesn't work out and I move there, we'll see each other and fall for each other all over again and life would be good.
ok ok so probably NOT going to happen but a girl can dream right?!