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We buried her yesterday. It's real. She's gone forever. And I'm stuck here. Alone.
It's not supposed to be like this. It's never supposed to be like this.
You should never bury your children. Babies can't die.
She never had a chance.
She didn't get to do the things she was supposed to, like walk and talk or even crawl.
We never went shopping together, or played at the park, or even yelled at eachother.
Her whole life was there. She hadn't done anything to screw it up. She could have been anything, done anything. But it was taken from her. Her whole life, everything was taken from her and it's not fucking fair. I know life's not fair. but, this?
I just miss her so bad.
I want her back.
But I can't have her.
I'll never get her back and I never get to comfort her when she skins her knee, or hold her when she gets her heart broken, or see her off on her first day of school, or pray for her when she leaves for college.
She doesn't get to do those things.
She's gone, forever.
And i'm here. Alone.
It's not supposed to be like this. It's never supposed to be like this.
You should never bury your children. Babies can't die.
She never had a chance.
She didn't get to do the things she was supposed to, like walk and talk or even crawl.
We never went shopping together, or played at the park, or even yelled at eachother.
Her whole life was there. She hadn't done anything to screw it up. She could have been anything, done anything. But it was taken from her. Her whole life, everything was taken from her and it's not fucking fair. I know life's not fair. but, this?
I just miss her so bad.
I want her back.
But I can't have her.
I'll never get her back and I never get to comfort her when she skins her knee, or hold her when she gets her heart broken, or see her off on her first day of school, or pray for her when she leaves for college.
She doesn't get to do those things.
She's gone, forever.
And i'm here. Alone.