LALALALALA
well,where do I start? Guys suck! Once again. when will I ever find a guy who likes me for me. or who actually likes me! I mean seriously, Am I actually that ugly. or just to bitchy or something! I have no clue! I hate this all my friends are happy, but me! I am stuck all by myself and lonely! I mean I am really lonely too! I seriously come home at night and wish I was happy again. I see some of my friends and they have the best boyfriends! That buy them flowers, do just little cute things with them and they are just cute. then me, I have nothing nobody to do those little cute things like tell me how pretty I am, sing to me or anything. People may think that its dumb for me to think like that, but I mean those things I miss the most about howwy, and being in an actual relationship. I really don't miss howwy that much, just some of the things he used to do. I mean when a guy finally likes me, I either push him away or just be a bitch to him. That sux, cuz I do not remember how to act when someone likes me I forgot. Its been that long. I like Jon, but I definently fucked that up. I called him an asshole and just kind of pushed to hard. I guess which, GRRRRRRRRR, I shouldn't do. I just ERRRRRRRRR!! Then, Rostic He dissappeared again. so, I do not know when I will see him again. Whenever he gets a hold of someone, I guess. I saw mike yesterday and I began to miss him. He is starting to look good. I wanna talk to him. But I am afraid of rejection or something. I dunno. Him still hating me, but he did talk to me the other day and we were cool. it was nice to have a decent convo with him. I dunno, I am done for now, my hands hurt.