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Its been such a long day. (Only had 2 and 1/2 hrs of sleep then a quick 45
min nap due to world religions hw that wasn't completed after 3 days
of serious studying..) I am exhausted from work, school, family fights about
terminal illness, and the anniversary of a friend's death.
My day began with an unplesant phone call around 5am and by 5:30 I'd given up
on the idea of being able to sleep so I tried to take the responcible/productive
route and do more hw for tonight hoping againist all odds I'd finish so I could
go to class. Unofrtunately not the case. By 7am it hit me "its the fucking 9th
- he's been dead for 3 fucking years".
I went to work. The boss is in town so the day was full of budget and kids
camp meetings, restuarant lunch, and very little office work accomplished.
Needless to say I'm extremely behind in my work and have some very tight
deadlines approaching. (Not to mention I can't just come to work and do MY
job. I have to Fucking babysit "my children" b/c they cant just come to work
and do their fucking jobs!)
After work I was at my wits end. So I went to the cemetary for a while. And
for the first time today my mind was able to slow down and think again. I
stoped replaying all the things he said, promised, and our humorus late night
adventuries.
The only thing I wish is that I could replay the video I have of he and I in
a dennys about six years ago. Unfortunately its on one of those small/mini
tapes that was never recorded to a full size video before the camera broke.