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So I've been w/out meds for about a week. I've been tryn to just "get by" untill I get paid on fri. But I realized today that I still wont have enough money come pay day due to last week's holiday. I'm hoping my loan will come in soon b/c my glasses payment and a tank of gass will use my entire paycheck. Not to mention I still haven't paid tuition yet.
I realized a few minutes ago that I havent done anything today except yell at the puppy, load the dishwasher, cook dinner, and try to fill out a job application! I've been working on this one application since noon!!!! Its so hard to sit down, to think, to look for the addresses and dates I need. Which makes me angry that I can't even sit and fill out a job application b/c its too hard!!!!
I'm also having sick/alarming urges to beat my dog to the point that she cant move. (I haven't of course.) But all the same I'm having an extremely violent day.
I'm not giving up yet.... I'm determined to finish the damn job apps tonight so I can drop them off tommorow otherwise I wont get a chance till next week and I need a job NOW!
I realized a few minutes ago that I havent done anything today except yell at the puppy, load the dishwasher, cook dinner, and try to fill out a job application! I've been working on this one application since noon!!!! Its so hard to sit down, to think, to look for the addresses and dates I need. Which makes me angry that I can't even sit and fill out a job application b/c its too hard!!!!
I'm also having sick/alarming urges to beat my dog to the point that she cant move. (I haven't of course.) But all the same I'm having an extremely violent day.
I'm not giving up yet.... I'm determined to finish the damn job apps tonight so I can drop them off tommorow otherwise I wont get a chance till next week and I need a job NOW!